@miss sandman: I believe since my mother had me at 16 she was not prepared mentally. And so that is when bad things happen. :(
WOW! so sorry to hear that about your mom. My mother was mean sober. She was always speaking hateful. And as a child she punished me severely with leather belt. I was so little I never understood. Why she hated me. But she stopped abusing me at 16 I stood up for myself. She never treated my young sisters that way. So my sisters kinda treat me differently because my mother speaks awful to them about me. My mother taught me what never to become for my little one.