So yeah, I’m not even sure how to even phrase this cause I’ve shared it but there’s been an update. My grandmother who was diagnosed (finally after YEARS of doctors not being correct) with a terminal illness is not looking too good.
I got a really weird call from my sister about how her condition has gotten worse and one of the nurses says it seems like she’s preparing to die. Her body has grown weaker and I’m not even sure I have processed it all?
I have already known that at some point sooner she would be gone, but I just need to put how I feel in words.
I’m gonna go through a tough grieving process, and I’m not going to rush it but I honestly feel like she’s been stressed for a few years about how they act at home.
I lived with my grandmother for 5 years prior to her getting sick and there were no problems but after I left it just went downhill. My grandfather and my great aunt (my grandmother’s sister) fight a lot and it sucks. It’s completely on my great aunt more because she always had a problem I feel with my grandfather. And I just honestly think that kind of stress just made it worse. I dunno
Yeah, it's really not an easy situation. Like Total says, let yourself feel whatever you're feeling. Everyone processes things differently. 
