I dunno it just seems like the universe always snubs me. I never had a Matric dance/prom because I went to a conservative Muslim school that didn't "do" dances. I didn't get to do anything for my 18th birthday because of stupid things happening in my life and stupid family. I didn't get to have a 21st birthday party and spent the day studying for test I knew I was gonna fail in a degree I knew I was gonna quit. I was so so looking forward to graduating this year. We were supposed to go out and do something special for my 21st birthday, but everything started escalating with Covid-19 and everywhere started closing. But to top it all off, I was so so looking forward to my graduation ceremony. I bought a dress, I figured out pictures, I've literally been waiting for this my entire life. Like my dream forever has been a cap and gown ceremony. I worked hard. I got it. And then Covid happened and they cancelled it with only a week to go. Usually don't like a lot of regular attention on me. But with big milestones, I would've liked something more than a "congratulations". People talk about the proms or their 21st or their graduation. I always have to say that I didn't have one. And it's not like I could've helped it. There were legit reasons for why those couldn't have happened. But it's still not fair. With how Covid is going I dunno if I'll get a postgraduate graduation. The next thing to look forward to after that is my wedding. So should I not look forward to it? I don't want to jinx anything. I dunno, just letting off steam.
I know there's worse to worry about. I know how privileged I am. I love working and studying from home. My job is still paying me. My family is healthy. But ya, its just... it sucks guys.