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I love this so much! Also loving your new look!
I guess to answer your question the most recent thing is something that I didn't consider much of a risk at the time? My best friend irl and I are building a tabletop system, partly because we needed it to run tabletop stories we couldn't find a good system for, but also because the act of making it is keeping us sane during quarantine. But we're getting to the point where we need outside opinions to make sure everything works, since we're pretty like minded.
We put together a little document of the pieces we needed opinions on and we posted it. We hadn't really told anyone that we were working on it, or that we'd be asking for help if people were interested, and tbh we'd been riding the high of being excited and proud of our work. But when it came to posting it, it was really like,, anxiety causing. We put it in a discord where most of our tabletop friends gather, and that community is like 98% people I trust to be at least friendly. The first comment was from that 2%, though, and that super bugged me. I called that person out, but I wasn't doing it for my own benefit, it was more to make sure my best friend wasn't discouraged. Of course either that or the late hour killed the channel, but it picked up again the next morning and I was relieved. I was afraid by actually asserting myself I'd turn everyone off of actually looking at the thing we made. Later in that thread, when that 2% kept being rude, my best friend also put his foot down, and honestly I'm glad. He has a really high tolerance for mistreatment (and I have developed a very low one), but I was more relieved that he also felt empowered to stand up for himself.
The funny part was that I didn't really realize the "risk" until my dad - also mad at 2% for being a butt - brought it up that we'd shared a little secret part of ourselves to the greater group. And, barring that one guy, all of our friends were really supportive. They even took the time to give us some really depthful feedback that's seriously helped us out. It's been really nice to find out who we can rely on, ya know? Because like also a couple other people helped kinda redirect that rude guy, and it was nice to not have to hold the fort alone.
Anyway, I'm not super sure if that's the kind of thing you were looking for Xanthan, but i found the exchange interesting and reassuring.
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I'm just glad it was so well received by the ones who did like it. If youd be comfortable with it, I'd love to check out your poetry sometime! Its such a subjective thing, and such a personal view into what someone values and how someone sees the world, I can absolutely understand anxiety when posting it!
🌈 Let the sun shine on your face,
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