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im really struggling
the amount of stress on my mind and body is really bad for me
everytime we're in a store i think about drinking, like when walking down wine aisles etc. i know i cant have any of it without getting horribly sick but part of me is like just wanting SOMETHING. i cant have alcohol i cant have opiates i cant have stimulants and i cant have a n y t h i n g. weed barely helps my pain at all and my brain is just. fckin goin FAST and im constantly in work & trauma mode. i can rly see why so many houseless folk cant get off of drugs - the physical & emotional pain is intense and ive barely even gone thru the hard shit of it
ive been clean from self-harm for about two years now but everytime i get stressed out and start having an autism melt down its the first thing my brain goes to. its getting really scary the images i get in my head and the craving
i've also still been in horrible pain - i cant keep up with my meds and i cant keep up with my HRT. the most i can do is try and eat and sleep and get to where we need to go
and the state is on fire and i'm right near where both of my parents live and aaaaaaaaaaaa im screaming
idk what to do for self care anymore either. we're at the cheapest airbnb we could find because of how hot it is and all the smoke is bad for my asthma so i have internet rn at least but i cant focus on anything long enough to relax
the amount of stress on my mind and body is really bad for me
everytime we're in a store i think about drinking, like when walking down wine aisles etc. i know i cant have any of it without getting horribly sick but part of me is like just wanting SOMETHING. i cant have alcohol i cant have opiates i cant have stimulants and i cant have a n y t h i n g. weed barely helps my pain at all and my brain is just. fckin goin FAST and im constantly in work & trauma mode. i can rly see why so many houseless folk cant get off of drugs - the physical & emotional pain is intense and ive barely even gone thru the hard shit of it
ive been clean from self-harm for about two years now but everytime i get stressed out and start having an autism melt down its the first thing my brain goes to. its getting really scary the images i get in my head and the craving
i've also still been in horrible pain - i cant keep up with my meds and i cant keep up with my HRT. the most i can do is try and eat and sleep and get to where we need to go
and the state is on fire and i'm right near where both of my parents live and aaaaaaaaaaaa im screaming
idk what to do for self care anymore either. we're at the cheapest airbnb we could find because of how hot it is and all the smoke is bad for my asthma so i have internet rn at least but i cant focus on anything long enough to relax
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