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Sorry this is so long.
For the past two years I've been trying to get into dental hygiene school. In between applying for schools, I went to a dental assisting school and graduated back in November. (Dental assisting is my backup idea in case I don't get into hygiene school, and was supposed to be a way for me to gain experience in the meantime). I've been applying for dental assisting jobs since October, and after 5 and a half months of rejections and 50+ applications, I believe I finally have a job. This morning I had second interview at an office and the orthodontist offered me the job. The reality of it hasn't set in for me yet, but in a way I don't feel as happy about it as I should.
I think I feel guilty because I'm still waiting to hear back from a school I interviewed for a few weeks ago, and I neglected to tell the orthodontist until after she offered me the position. I had so much time to tell her and I felt too nervous to say anything ; ^ ;. Me not knowing whether I've been accepted or not has been stressing me out so much and has put my life in a stand-still. I feel bad because I don't want her to think she's wasting her time on me, but in reality she would be wasting her time if I happen to get accepted. She didn't take back the job offer, but her demeanor changed after I told her and the tension made me feel so much worse as I left. Like... I don't feel like I deserve the job at this point. I appreciate her for being the only dentist to give me a chance, though.
I also feel bad because I'm still waiting to hear back from another job I interviewed for three weeks ago. Between the two, I really wanted that job because it's at the school and I figured it'd be a good way for me to make connections. The hiring manager has been out due to a family emergency and there's no telling when she'll be back to give me an answer. It feels like time is ticking away and I'm stuck between not knowing which direction to take because I don't have any answers. While I want to work at this job, I also really want to get into school. If I don't get into school then I'll be able to work there long-term. I'm so conflicted... I feel so overwhelmed with guilt. And of course my manager at my current job (coffee shop) probably isn't too happy after I told him about the offer. For now I'm willing to work one day a week at the coffee shop (while working at the ortho office), just so that if I do get into school then I'll still have that job and it'll be flexible enough to work with my school schedule. But if I don't get into school then I think I'll probably quit and work as an assistant full-time.
As you can see, my thoughts are all over the place. :/ Anyone have any advice or similar experiences where you've dealt with conflicting situations or not having answers?
Sorry this is so long.
For the past two years I've been trying to get into dental hygiene school. In between applying for schools, I went to a dental assisting school and graduated back in November. (Dental assisting is my backup idea in case I don't get into hygiene school, and was supposed to be a way for me to gain experience in the meantime). I've been applying for dental assisting jobs since October, and after 5 and a half months of rejections and 50+ applications, I believe I finally have a job. This morning I had second interview at an office and the orthodontist offered me the job. The reality of it hasn't set in for me yet, but in a way I don't feel as happy about it as I should.
I think I feel guilty because I'm still waiting to hear back from a school I interviewed for a few weeks ago, and I neglected to tell the orthodontist until after she offered me the position. I had so much time to tell her and I felt too nervous to say anything ; ^ ;. Me not knowing whether I've been accepted or not has been stressing me out so much and has put my life in a stand-still. I feel bad because I don't want her to think she's wasting her time on me, but in reality she would be wasting her time if I happen to get accepted. She didn't take back the job offer, but her demeanor changed after I told her and the tension made me feel so much worse as I left. Like... I don't feel like I deserve the job at this point. I appreciate her for being the only dentist to give me a chance, though.
I also feel bad because I'm still waiting to hear back from another job I interviewed for three weeks ago. Between the two, I really wanted that job because it's at the school and I figured it'd be a good way for me to make connections. The hiring manager has been out due to a family emergency and there's no telling when she'll be back to give me an answer. It feels like time is ticking away and I'm stuck between not knowing which direction to take because I don't have any answers. While I want to work at this job, I also really want to get into school. If I don't get into school then I'll be able to work there long-term. I'm so conflicted... I feel so overwhelmed with guilt. And of course my manager at my current job (coffee shop) probably isn't too happy after I told him about the offer. For now I'm willing to work one day a week at the coffee shop (while working at the ortho office), just so that if I do get into school then I'll still have that job and it'll be flexible enough to work with my school schedule. But if I don't get into school then I think I'll probably quit and work as an assistant full-time.
As you can see, my thoughts are all over the place. :/ Anyone have any advice or similar experiences where you've dealt with conflicting situations or not having answers?
