@Totalanimefan: It does seem like it was a better payout before, but idk.
I have a terrible memory, so I'm unreliable.

@Totalanimefan: Nothing other than the vaguely unhelpful 'it's the depression' answer.
I'd probably be fine if I still had some smoke, but I have none.
And I can't afford to keep getting it and I really don't like the idea of becoming that reliant on weed to sleep.
Because I've taken otc sleep aids.
I have two different ones.
They don't work.

@Totalanimefan: Yeah, I haven't had edibles before though and I think that whole 'eat it and wait' thing is annoying.
I like instant results. lol
And sadly, I don't think so.
I'm gonna talk to my grandfather about it tonight, see if we can possibly get me a new mattress.
And soon bc I can't keep doing this.
My insomnia spells can last weeks sometimes and if the bed is part of the problem (which it certainly is bc my bed is also my daily sitting spot) I need to get rid of it.
Because while I can't sleep, even just laying down in a comfy spot helps.
And right now I don't even have that so even trying to rest isn't restful and I just get crankier.
I've been browsing mattresses and stuff, and I found a springless in a box bed on sale, and my aunt and uncle really like their springless mattress.
Then I'm going to have to figure something out with my room so I can try to fit a small but comfy chair in here somewhere so my ass doesn't break down another bed before it's time.

@Totalanimefan: Honestly. XD
Like nah, I'm moving in right here until y'all get me my mattress.

@Totalanimefan: Hang a sign that just says "Quiet, product testing in progress."
Wonder how fast I'd get "asked to leave". xD

@Totalanimefan: 😂😂😂

@Totalanimefan: I hope so.
I haven't talked to him yet, I prefer to talk to him after my grandma goes to sleep bc talking to him in front of her is a nightmare.
She's always got something rude to say and especially right now, I can't afford to yell at her for being irritating.

@Aradia: They can't hide from us forever!

@Totalanimefan: So far mine is pretty simple!! I actually tried to mimic the multistep Korean style routines a few years back but I didn't have enough products or time to do it exactly as expected. And recently I realized my skin gets fussy and red if I put too many products on it lol...
Right now I just cleanse and use a sheet mask, I usually use hydrating/moisturizing ones with stuff like hyaluronic acid or squalane... sometimes I use a toner or skin conditioner between cleansing and the mask, for extra hydration and some exfoliation. On days I don't do the mask, I cleanse, tone, and apply a lotion or cream. I do wanna introduce more products to my skin but I need to do more research first to make sure I don't freak it out

It is almost 10 am where I am!!

@Totalanimefan: Fr. Like I'm not all rainbows and sunshine all the time, but I'm generally not uselessly an asshole.
If I'm an asshole, there's a reason behind it.
With my grandma, she's just an asshole.

@Totalanimefan: Right!!! SPF is so important. I used to avoid it a lot when I was a kid because it was an icky sensory experience for me, but now I know better and bought something smoother I'd be comfortable using regularly. Trying to build up a habit of applying it whenever I go out. My skin is also fairly dry but I live in a very humid climate so I just occasionally need more intensive skincare in the drier winters.