I'm not sure how we got to this but at some point sex felt like an obligation to him because all I did at home was read manga and watch shows/anime and never really looked for a job and he's taking care of all of my needs. He seemed to resent me for not looking for a job or even caring to want one? but would also say I didn't have to have a job, he still loved me and all that mattered was I did the dishes and assumingely had sex with him. I felt conflicted and confused. Should I try my best to get a job or will it be fine to just do what I enjoy? Of course I would prefer to enjoy what I love and not get a job. Was I being selfish? All he ever did was work and play games the majority of our life together.
And I thought I guess this will be how our life is.