Forums Serious Talk Venting , Pity Partying, And General Overwhelming Loneliness
ever regret writing something? XD
I've had nightmares about my ex wanting nothing to do with me for 7+ years now
man he really was the one that got away ;')
man he really was the one that got away ;')
Call me ping me if you wanna reach me
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Yes, all the time. When I think back on some of the things I’ve written I can’t help but cringe. Especially if it’s really personal stuff or me opening up. ><
Yes, all the time. When I think back on some of the things I’ve written I can’t help but cringe. Especially if it’s really personal stuff or me opening up. ><
I regret a lot of the things I posted when I was younger. Why was I so weird back then?
Stay Gloomy.
At times, I do
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It's hard to not beat myself up over it all. Moving on is not my forte 😅
For context tho - I've been grieving a lot this past year. I have to remove a lot of immediate family members from my life because I was born into a super toxic family. I'm still not brave enough to have the confrontation but I'm recommitting myself to healing and know it will be a matter of time.
My mom has Narcissistic Personality Disorder. I'm grieving 29 years of lies and thinking she was a good mom when she didn't even try to be an ok mom. She will always choose herself over me and my siblings. She was physically & verbally abusive (along with my stepdad - of whom she told me was my biological father for 13 years) emotionally neglectful, a raging alcoholic, and gaslights me anytime I bring any of it up.
It's just hard to grieve and to let myself feel angry as anger is something I've repressed my whole life because I always thought anger = abuse & violence. I was so afraid of turning into her I never let myself feel. It's hard unlearning all of this.
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It's hard to not beat myself up over it all. Moving on is not my forte 😅
For context tho - I've been grieving a lot this past year. I have to remove a lot of immediate family members from my life because I was born into a super toxic family. I'm still not brave enough to have the confrontation but I'm recommitting myself to healing and know it will be a matter of time.
My mom has Narcissistic Personality Disorder. I'm grieving 29 years of lies and thinking she was a good mom when she didn't even try to be an ok mom. She will always choose herself over me and my siblings. She was physically & verbally abusive (along with my stepdad - of whom she told me was my biological father for 13 years) emotionally neglectful, a raging alcoholic, and gaslights me anytime I bring any of it up.
It's just hard to grieve and to let myself feel angry as anger is something I've repressed my whole life because I always thought anger = abuse & violence. I was so afraid of turning into her I never let myself feel. It's hard unlearning all of this.
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this is true. a good reminder to have. thank you and i love your current avi :3 very cute[/color]
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[/size][/font] Totalanimefan:
[font=Verdana][size=14][color=DODGERBLUE]We all have our regrets I think.
I guess the best thing you can do is learn and grow from them.
[font=Verdana][size=14][color=DODGERBLUE]We all have our regrets I think.
I guess the best thing you can do is learn and grow from them.
this is true. a good reminder to have. thank you and i love your current avi :3 very cute[/color]
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👽 Formerly Sailormoon 👽
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Having you as a Voltie would be awesome.