I cant afford a therapist, which is why I have to ask in this way

but I'm also anti-meds (for myself, only, not at others!!) so there's no real point anyway, for how expensive it is.
but I rather not elaborate on that here

Aside from this, I'm doing well!!
I got SO addicted to baldur's gate 3 recently, so I've been spending a lot of time on that
and drawing as usual ♥

This happens to me too... mainly with video games, and things I get intrested in. I've been playing a fair amount of Starfield lately so I totally get the BG3 thing, lol.

@Totalanimefan:
Thanks for the encouragement! Trying to put it into that perspective might be helpful ♥


@MaxIsConfused:
@Ark:
Commitment issues makes a lot of sense. I definitely have thought about this frequently for a long time.
I commit well when it comes to people/relationships! But for some reason with anything else, I have a hard time.
Of course, I wish I could pick a therapist's brain about it, but without the funds to do so I just have to search for behavioral exercises myself. XD

@neon:
Oh I used to have a sticky note widget on my phone screen to help me keep track of things. Then it became 4 sticky notes, each of them full of text, and it killed my battery
Did it help?
Maybe with one or two things, but not a life changer.

I just made a solo discord server too, just for jotting things down.

@macsen191:
I heard Starfield is really good! I'm avoiding it so I dont feel tempted to spend money on it right now XD
Like... maybe next year! BG3 consumed so much of my time already, I had to force myself to CHILL and take a break from it.
I picked up ACNH again with the idea that if i dont time travel, I'll get bored and just turn it off in a reasonable time HAHA
Did I?
no
I could collect sticks until every tree stops dropping them--

@Stinky:
Sorry you're having to struggle with that!! I do hope the doses help you ♥
It is certainly a troublesome feeling, cause I have so many projects I want to do xD

@neon:
Yesss same! Discord has really kept my social life together this year, that with twitter shenanigans
I can keep up with people easily

@Stinky:
Yeah I heard about the shortage. Its really bad, especially since you're not supposed to stop cold-turkey
I hope everyone who's prescribed and waiting is doing ok, health-wise.

But yes, you're exactly right. I always have to trick my brain in ways so I can get things done.
Sometimes its simple things like getting out of bed right away in the morning and jumping in the shower, it puts my brain in work-mode for a certain amount of time.
There's a point where the habit will break, like with anything in a two week time. If I have a consistent routine (do the same thing at the same time each day) I get really tense and muck it up before long. But I still dont want medicine, cause I always get rly bad adverse effects from any medicines Ive ever taken D:

@macsen191:
How dare he not just buy his own xbox XD /jkjk
I dont have kids, but this reminds me of when my parents would play on the game consoles (nes or ps1) when my sister and i went to bed as kids. Sometimes I would catch my mom playing and it blew my little 5 yo mind that mom likes games too (but really I just never saw it because we hogged it lmao)
I remember my sis and I would brag about how cool our parents are because they play final fantasy. meanwhile kids we brag to had no idea what that was-