I hate getting sick.
And I was dumb and stopped taking my antidepressants, and if I do, I get malaise as a withdrawal symptom, so that didn't help much coming right out of a cold.
I'm taking them again so I should improve.
And I just listened to the song. It's good. o:
ugh yeah withdrawal sucks. I kinda want to just stop taking mine since none of them ever work!!!
I wanted to stop mine because I'm worried about once my body builds a tolerance.
And I don't want to be hitched to meds for the rest of my life. :c
But I need to retrain my brain to be more positive before I can go off of them.
(Or at least do weaning right and not just stop, lmao.)
And I don't want to be hitched to meds for the rest of my life. :c
But I need to retrain my brain to be more positive before I can go off of them.
(Or at least do weaning right and not just stop, lmao.)
That'd be good.
Depression is dumb.
And I found out mental illness wasn't exclusive to just my dad's side.
My mom's brother is bipolar (my aunt, his ex-wife, and my mom's best friend in high school, told me).
So yeah, my family passed on a broken brain to me. >:C
Also crushing on my co-worker and thinking he's cool and I'm a piece of shit doesn't help.
I could talk about that, but then I'd seem like a whiny baby, lmao.
Depression is dumb.
And I found out mental illness wasn't exclusive to just my dad's side.
My mom's brother is bipolar (my aunt, his ex-wife, and my mom's best friend in high school, told me).
So yeah, my family passed on a broken brain to me. >:C
Also crushing on my co-worker and thinking he's cool and I'm a piece of shit doesn't help.
I could talk about that, but then I'd seem like a whiny baby, lmao.
yaaa it is dumb.
I think only my grandma had depression? my mom's got some other issues that I hope I don't get. but y'know. it's bound to happen.
what's he like?
I think only my grandma had depression? my mom's got some other issues that I hope I don't get. but y'know. it's bound to happen.
what's he like?
He's got long hair. I call it "metal hair" since he's into metal and stuff, lmao.
He's into anime, too, DBZ and stuff like that.
He's pretty focused and serious on the job, and I've made a lot of effort to not disappoint him.
One cuz I like him, two cuz he knows what he's doing and I should listen to him.
He's going to a con in Detroit this Friday.
But I think he might like this girl that he used to work with. I dunno if she works at a different store (cuz I know he transferred only a couple months before I joined) or quit Pizza Hut. He's sweet on her and bought her a tattoo and was talking about taking her to Disney or something. And I don't think people just...do that, y'know? So he's either into her and she doesn't know, or something.
Then I get that downward spiral with my self-esteem cuz I'm like, "I'm not pretty."
I don't know if people see him as attractive. Like he went from looking like a nerd, to wearing contacts and having nice long hair.
So I'm just slowly trying to be his friend. I'm not gonna ask him what his number is, and I don't even really want to give it to him so he could contact me in the case of needing someone to come in. My number should be in the system, but I don't think it's something that easy to access?
He went ziplining the other day and told a few of us about it.
And I try to like. Well, better to do an example.
So he was opening a different store he's never worked at before on Monday, I think, and I told him I hoped it went well.
And I told him that if I didn't see him before he left for his con on Friday, that I hope it was good. (He said they usually are).
And one day I told him I liked his hair, so.
He's into anime, too, DBZ and stuff like that.
He's pretty focused and serious on the job, and I've made a lot of effort to not disappoint him.
One cuz I like him, two cuz he knows what he's doing and I should listen to him.
He's going to a con in Detroit this Friday.
But I think he might like this girl that he used to work with. I dunno if she works at a different store (cuz I know he transferred only a couple months before I joined) or quit Pizza Hut. He's sweet on her and bought her a tattoo and was talking about taking her to Disney or something. And I don't think people just...do that, y'know? So he's either into her and she doesn't know, or something.
Then I get that downward spiral with my self-esteem cuz I'm like, "I'm not pretty."
I don't know if people see him as attractive. Like he went from looking like a nerd, to wearing contacts and having nice long hair.
So I'm just slowly trying to be his friend. I'm not gonna ask him what his number is, and I don't even really want to give it to him so he could contact me in the case of needing someone to come in. My number should be in the system, but I don't think it's something that easy to access?
He went ziplining the other day and told a few of us about it.
And I try to like. Well, better to do an example.
So he was opening a different store he's never worked at before on Monday, I think, and I told him I hoped it went well.
And I told him that if I didn't see him before he left for his con on Friday, that I hope it was good. (He said they usually are).
And one day I told him I liked his hair, so.
Yeah, cuz that doesn't happen a lot.
I guess I just liked his face a lot, lol.
Cuz even with OKCupid and stuff, I'm just like, not attracted to people immediately?
Or well, sure, attraction, but then you gotta talk to them, and then they're not really fun to talk to.
I say that even if nothing happens romantically, it'd be nice to be his friend.
I guess I just liked his face a lot, lol.
Cuz even with OKCupid and stuff, I'm just like, not attracted to people immediately?
Or well, sure, attraction, but then you gotta talk to them, and then they're not really fun to talk to.
I say that even if nothing happens romantically, it'd be nice to be his friend.
Yeah. Even more when you present as a cishet girl, lmao.
Anyways, I gotta see about donating next month.
I'm still wanting to just rent a truck, but my cousin's saying something about a cargo van, so.
Might not be able to do much in the say of donating until early December.
Anyways, I gotta see about donating next month.
I'm still wanting to just rent a truck, but my cousin's saying something about a cargo van, so.
Might not be able to do much in the say of donating until early December.
『 Batsy Says. . .』
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@Shark: it's going.
Kinda having a moody day a bit.
hbu?
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@Shark: it's going.
Kinda having a moody day a bit.
hbu?
I joined fetlife and a lot of weirdos wanted to talk to me. Mostly straight men, which isn't true if you're attracted to me. sorry.
Yeah donating is cool.
@MoodyBats: I feel you. I'm not having the best time either. but I'm working through it...
Yeah donating is cool.
@MoodyBats: I feel you. I'm not having the best time either. but I'm working through it...
『 Batsy Says. . .』
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@Shark: yeah.
im very depressed today
so now i am trying to art and take my mind off of it.
It's not working though lol.
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@Shark: yeah.
im very depressed today
so now i am trying to art and take my mind off of it.
It's not working though lol.
@MoodyBats: any specific thing you're drawing? I still need to draw something today. maybe a cat. hopefully it doesn't come out like crap.
Fetlife sounds like just the place weirdos would go, my dude.
I'm starving but I'm not sure what to eat.
I'm starving but I'm not sure what to eat.
hi, i'm nyoom. 27.
『 Batsy Says. . .』
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@Shark: Lips on this drawing i've been working on for like a month.
debating to live stream to start that back up but idk.
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@Shark: Lips on this drawing i've been working on for like a month.
debating to live stream to start that back up but idk.
yeah, I stopped going on there.
eat a big ol.... potato
@MoodyBats: maybe that would help? o: I'd do it if I could. lol
eat a big ol.... potato
@MoodyBats: maybe that would help? o: I'd do it if I could. lol
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@Shark: it probably would.
Livestreaming use to be almost like my main motivator.
Despite it was empty all the time i didn't care cause i was drawing lol.
But last time I did it was like June or July.
So it's been a while. :vanora_sweat:
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@Shark: it probably would.
Livestreaming use to be almost like my main motivator.
Despite it was empty all the time i didn't care cause i was drawing lol.
But last time I did it was like June or July.
So it's been a while. :vanora_sweat:
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Having you as a Voltie would be awesome.