『 Moody Says. . .』
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May or may not even respond if this even gets responses because *social anxiety* and might be too afraid to reply back.
Anyways i just feel defeated by life overall. I know others have it way worse.
But whenever we do zoom meetings with my mom i always leave more traumatized because her meds for pain just
are not helping her anymore so she's practically begging for it to stop, because covid, i can't see her or help her.
and idk how long i can keep doing these zoom meetings. she's either sleeping or in so much pain and its very painful to just sit and watch.
and nothing helps her during those times either or pain meds take either too long to kick in or they just don't work anymore for her.
She had a stroke about 10-11 years ago, she also suffers from a mild case of MS, and she has Dementia.
And life wise, i feel im just drifting. I don't feel like socializing to anyone, and i know my art is no good and lately feeling
should i even keep pursuing art anymore since a huge goal for me is to kickstart a freelance digital art career like having my own Etsy shop.
I probably will always draw because it's a huge part of me and my life.
But lately...it feels like i have nothing and idk if my work is worth anything or anything i do is worth while.
I know i could just "find a new hobby" but i don't even know if i have the mental power to dive myself into something new.
just feel like right now, i have nothing.
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May or may not even respond if this even gets responses because *social anxiety* and might be too afraid to reply back.
Anyways i just feel defeated by life overall. I know others have it way worse.
But whenever we do zoom meetings with my mom i always leave more traumatized because her meds for pain just
are not helping her anymore so she's practically begging for it to stop, because covid, i can't see her or help her.
and idk how long i can keep doing these zoom meetings. she's either sleeping or in so much pain and its very painful to just sit and watch.
and nothing helps her during those times either or pain meds take either too long to kick in or they just don't work anymore for her.
She had a stroke about 10-11 years ago, she also suffers from a mild case of MS, and she has Dementia.
And life wise, i feel im just drifting. I don't feel like socializing to anyone, and i know my art is no good and lately feeling
should i even keep pursuing art anymore since a huge goal for me is to kickstart a freelance digital art career like having my own Etsy shop.
I probably will always draw because it's a huge part of me and my life.
But lately...it feels like i have nothing and idk if my work is worth anything or anything i do is worth while.
I know i could just "find a new hobby" but i don't even know if i have the mental power to dive myself into something new.
just feel like right now, i have nothing.
