I've been struggling with Schizoaffective along side possible ptsd? (physical and mental abuse) Other then pills I have no idea how to help it anymore the episodes are getting out of hand and it's affecting me to the point I waste days of my time on it. The mental breakdowns are to the point where I feel it'll do some damage health wise (Heart attack possibly? It could just be normal) I try distracting myself going out eating better and trying to find things i enjoy but it all seems to just bottle it all up rather then prevent it, only causing worse episodes/breakdowns. I still live with my abuser and another abuser is online stalking me which is what sparks the worst breakdowns. I don't know what to do anymore.


Therapy is in the process but even that doesn't really help me neither is it safe to put me on meds due to the fact I get addicted to them upping my doses just to try and make the feelings completely stop. Oils aren't an option due to most being toxic to animals.

I really need some advice. I know my illness is not common so it's hard to find others with the same illness but im hoping to meet someone else who's dealt with it other than my mom and grandpa since their life with it has been terrible and it freaks me out.