EDIT :
Thank you to everyone who made comments here, who gave me advice and even some who wished me well. I am doing a lot better than when I posted this and in a much better headspace. I wish to let this go and move on from what was posted and so if I could have a mod please lock this post, it would be appreciated. Thank you in advance.
Thank you to everyone who made comments here, who gave me advice and even some who wished me well. I am doing a lot better than when I posted this and in a much better headspace. I wish to let this go and move on from what was posted and so if I could have a mod please lock this post, it would be appreciated. Thank you in advance.