I'm sorry you're not feeling that great. What has you so stressed?

@Kira: Work. I just had a employee, who also happens to be a friend, dump a lot on me about how she's feeling at work. It's frustrating bc she kept a lot of things inside and allowed them to build up to this point otherwise this wouldn't have escalated. However I also recognize that I need to be more consistent with scheduling and I should communicate better regarding that with her. One problem is that her activities have been cancelled bc we've had some changes. And I can see how that can be percieved as disrespectful and inconsiderate when she puts effort, energy and time into the activities she wants to run. I apologized for that and I'm going to be better with that. But I'm also fed up of how tense it can feel between us at work and I'm not sure what's wrong outside of what she's told me bc she's been pretty guarded.

She also mentioned wanting to make outside of work strictly socializing and not work related whatsoever and keep our relationship strictly work related at work. Which I agree with. But I don't see how saying I'm tired and a lil stressed translates to pushing boundaries and breaking the employee/employer relationship. But I also understand how the power dynamic affects our relationship at work.

It's confusing and I'm just exhausted. I wasn't expecting her to unload a lot on me. But also I asked her to text me what's up and I'm glad she told me so I can process this information and move on to be a better employer and friend. But I'm also anxious as fuck and super stressed and wired now.

@Kira: yeah, honestly at this point I'm likely going to only view her as an employee and move away from our friendship. as harsh as that sounds. i can try to juggle the two but i'm still going to make mistakes and i rather just keep it professional, we were friends before i hired her but... idk. she's not a bad person or anything. it just feels exhausting, esp when she didn't communicate with me for 2/3 months about how she was feeling.

@Totalanimefan: yeah, it's helping me get out of my funk a bit. tbh last night was rly stressful too outside of the above situation i mentioned. i've been intending to move out and into my partner's apartment but last night his roommate/our friend was rly rude. and it's made me second guess my decision. i'm probs just going to save and move out by myself next summer. :vanora_sweat: