So, Friday was Great at work. A bit of a clusterFk. But still great, we said goodbye to an intern we had and had a staff lunch at a great restaurant.We had a stressful time trying to schedule people for the weekend at a 24h care client's house. The hospital shifts were filled, and mentioned to the after hours staff that certain people were available if anyone called off.
Was scheduled to have fish & chips with my grandparents and we did, then it went Fking downhill from there.
So, long story short, my special needs brother whom is a year younger than I has been in the hospital since April 7th with Pnemonia. He has had a few scares due to breathing and lack there of a few times, but is now in the IMCU floor and stuff. We were all hoping he would bounce back but Friday my grandparents got word that he would probably not be strong enough to make it and that he is slowly dying.
So they gotta go make funeral arrangements etc. And we don't know when it'll happen as of yet but there was a Fkton of grief over the weekend. My Uncles' first wedding Anniversary was on Saturday though and everyone was too sad to really celebrate D:
And my stupid youngest brother decided now was a good time to propose to his gf. They are frikken 19. Like to me that's not a good time. They may have done that to try to better the situation but it didn't really work? He's had the ring for I guess a while though but yeah it seems like he's using that as a distraction but it failed to be one.

So how was everyone else's weekend?

@Kira: Everyone thinks for one he is too young and immature. Cause 19 in this day and age is too young especially cause he is not mature, nor is his now fiancee.
@Totalanimefan: Cannot really do the latter when it's pouring down rain. But the melancholy of the rain is mood.

So, my nan told me as well that he is in a lot of pain and he's on oxygen and a feeding tube but they are moving him up to Palliative Care and going to lower his oxygen and feedings. D: Which also sucks for me cause I will have to take time off of work and tell them at work what is going on. Which will be hard without bawling. Cause with that lowering, idk if he will make it through the week.

@Totalanimefan: LOL that's what happens to me though. I conceal, don;'t feel then explode over time. ;u;
though I may come home from work everyday this week and just let it all out in a gross sobbing cry.. not as bad as Friday but let it out some. the worst is gonna be funeral etc. May burst into flames upon entry to w.e church. Especially if it's the church we used to go to *the priest there is ughhhhhh, even nan didnt like him he;s a bigot and she has gay sons and yeah*

Yeah <3 online support is good too. I also let a couple close friends know and they will be my rock as well.

@Totalanimefan: Yep, I also have a bestie/Ex of mine whom will take the day off work whenever the funeral will be just to be there for me. If it all is too much we can bail out no matter what my fam says cause I get overwhelmed and I'd rather not have panic attacks in say a church or a hall for a wake...
@Lufi: TY ;u; Animals are cute babus. I also been binging sims challenges on youtube that also seems to take my mind away from it for a little while.

@Lufi: Or for the rare case that soms sims are, starve their human LOL cause they dont eat til like noon or supper or something
I like 100bby and i also like rags to rishes etc. and when the youtubers get to try the new packs and tells us their opinions.

@Lufi: yup. my friend and i did that for each other LOL but we havent really tried hard to breed that out yet.

no word from family about the hospital goings on. but i cut my finger on a knidfe AGAIN

@Lufi: eeh looks like it's maybe bruising and not fully healing shut but not bleeding more. But super sore.

@Lufi: it's right on the knuckle so harder to heal gotta keep finger not bent etc D:

And I got a fam call saying the countdown is imminent

@Lufi: Might take ya up on that when i get off work. Gotta tell my boss today too D:

@Kira: Music, lol mostly metal. Metal is very relaxing LOL
, sometimes classical and essential oils and baths etc (cant rn for tatht cause of cut on finger. dont want it soaking too long and unstitching itslf naturaly.)