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My Capricorn veneer is getting in the way of my Aquarius heart

I mean. I know what I know.

And I know what I don’t.

I have a desire for concrete knowledge, not faith. But I guess that’s not how that works.

I dunno. Last year when things were looking so dark I had a crisis of faith for the first time. And I don’t know that I’ve recovered. And that hurts.

And if I had a blog and I joined a forum I could kinda connect with others on it

Maybe I should try to find an online community for this kind of thing

Or I should at least reconnect with my daily practice. I haven’t touched my cards since we moved except the once.

Maybe an old school blog about it.

And yeah I think paper is right out. I’m wishing I could pull up my reading from last year but I don’t know where the fuck I saved it

I know I sound bats hit and I don’t care

Last night the Looker looked like a Pokémon. Like a glamour of pikachu. To make me let down my guard. And I think it worked.

If that was a test I failed. But I think it was just training. Unsure.

There’s really no teacher. Do I need to become lucid?

And like
I know it’s real in some capacity.

My time with Alicia proved that.

I wish I had another mentor to help me make sense of things

Invisibility is pretty easy. Getting the hang of it. Flying is very hard and I’m a novice. And the magic…. They haven’t had me do magic in years, not since that farm/bird dream.

Invisibility, flying, and some manner of magic. Time magic.

What’s real and what’s just my brain?

Really not trying to go back there any sooner than I have to now that boss man is making them stay all the way to 5 ffs.

Wonder if there’s an app or mobile version or if it’s just the desktop one wifey uses

And could do a tarot journal there also. We can play with that some and see how we feel