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so i'm in a discord with some people from another site, and i swear the leader doesn't like me. they always ignore what i say, or at least most of the time, they never compliment me/my art/etc, but they'll compliment other people as soon as they post, and they pretty much always ignore any problems i post in the personal area.

i dont know why they don't like me- they've been like this since i joined, and we had never interacted before this.

since they're the leader, and everyone loves them, it's not like i can just say something in group or have them removed. what should i do? i feel really ignored and i just want to know why they don't like me

so i was in a long distance abusive relationship a while back. It's been probably over a year now since then, but I still get panic attacks when I think about him, or see/hear things that remind me of him/the relationship.

i have 0 attraction to this man now, or at least, i thought i did.

i was scrolling through messages i'd send my best friend the other night and i came across photos i'd sent her of him, and suddenly i was disgustingly attracted to this man again. aroused, i guess,,

and i suddenly felt really sad and i missed things about him. i hate that i felt all of that in a span of seconds, but i did, and i'm not really sure what to think. i guess i'm coming here to vent, and also to ask if this is normal? or if i should feel horrible?

** i guess i should note that a lot of the abuse was sexual in nature-- not physically, obviously, but verbally, with verbal threats and such about sexual things**