Devilkinboi's posts

@Ixora: I don't know if mine ever will. I'm just the baby, which annoys me.

@Ixora: I think I need some time away first before we can talk things out. It's just too raw at the moment and she has the problem of not listening.

@Ixora: Yeah, sometimes my online friends are such a big help in keeping me calm and venting when I just had a fight with her. She does the same thing with video games, cartoons, anime, etc. That they're juvenile and games are for kids. Yet she doesn't bug my brothers about it at all.

@octology: *snugs*

Octo's work is always so gorgeous!

Well, it's kinda cloudy, but no rain. Been trying to keep myself occupied, but most of it has led to naps(save for walking the dog).

Wasn't sure whether I should do this. but whatever, I have to let it out. I currently live with my mother and one of my brothers(I'm the youngest) in the apartment that belonged to my maternal grandparents that mom inherited upon their deaths. Now, about me. I have been battling depression since my teenage years after an incident with my grandfather I may get into in another post. I've been hospitalized twice for suicidal thoughts and have given it some thought. I've come to realize... My mother is pretty much a catalyst for whenever I have a crisis or end up hospitalized. Her words and behavior sting, and as much as I'd love to be independent, finding a job in this damn island is harder than winning the lottery unless you have connections, which I don't. She constantly picks fights with me over things I HAVE to do or don't do, according to her expectations. She wants me to BE her, which I can't. It's gotten to the point where I don't care where I go, I have to get out of the apartment. And yes, my brother doesn't help in this case either. He barely interacts with me whatsoever. And they both love ganging up on me whenever I turn up in the conversation. I read up a bit on toxic people and my mother(brother somewhat) fits the bill for what they are. I also always feel emotionally drained after I talk with her. For my own health, I need to get out. This cannot continue. Anyway, that's all I have say. Anyone else have problems with toxic people in their lives?

@Unicorn: any tips that could help?

@Unicorn: That's good. I just have a very overactive gag reflex and then come the pukes. Eesh.

Still have my Galaxy Note 3 from 2014, but I've never had an iPhone, so I couldn't say.

@Night XIV: Sure, I'll hold on to it for you! :statichappy:

@Unicorn: Me neither. Makes my stomach go crazy.

@Unicorn: So long as she avoids stress, she should be alright.

@Unicorn: If she's under a lot of stress, it gets really bad.