Lailakin's posts

@Laufeia: o.o Depends, what are the bunnies made of?

@Tsundererra:
@Laufeia:

All I know is now Laila wants Cinnamon Rolls, Tea, and Bunnies D:

@Shadami: Hee~ ^^ I'm glad :3 I sometimes have a hard time speaking out, I fear people won't think me genuine or will find me too lost in dreamy clouds, but I really feel that way about things sometimes. So when it makes someone happy to hear, It's really good for me too.
Thank You~

@Zuzu: Yay! :3
Ooh! That would be neat! I'll have to check it out if you do make it!

Think of it this way... When you initially met him there were things that attracted you to him, probably physical things, appearance etc..
And yes, now you know more about him and you can rationally and logically decide, "This man is not an attractive partner to be with emotionally or mentally."
But that doesn't take a way the baseline you started with all together, the physical initial attraction. That's okay. That part doesn't factor in these new facts.

The important part is that you know who he is on an emotional and mental level now and you're keeping yourself safe from him now.

I think it's really normal and not unusual at all. Both the feelings and the guilt about the feelings.
Don't beat yourself up though, you are just fine. Just keep yourself safe and stay out of contact with him. Perhaps see if you can delete those old messages.
Keep the lines of communication severed. Practice some extra self-care and revisit the reasons you are no longer with him. Look in the mirror today and remind yourself you didn't deserve the abuse he put you through.
Basically, Re-Center and Re-Solidify your foundation that keeps you standing on your own two feet and away from his abuse.

If you need help, if you want someone to talk it out with, or you want ideas on things to do for self-care or exercises to remind yourself your importance or why hes a bad idea, feel free to talk to me. I've been there, I understand, Ill happily share the things I did to move past my own former abuse. Not everything I did is right for everyone, we all heal in our own ways, but sometimes sharing our experiences and how we overcome them can help us learn new tricks for dealing with our own.

@Shadami: I just stopped in to say I hope you and your new little one are doing well and getting plenty of rest!

As for crappy art, Don't think of it that way! People love being thought about in general or having little things done for them.
Even if it's not up to your usual standards, I think you'll find people will love it nonetheless. Because it's something unique from you that no one else can 100% replicate.
Art is valuable because it's inherently personal, even when it's just your initial sketches, no one but you can create Shadami's Art.
I'd be thrilled to see what you can do on a 5-15 minute timer! That's a nifty little challenge too!

I just got around to reading the comic finally :3 Im still learning all the characters and whatnot but this is really adorable :3 I love how colorful the whole comic is too :D

Ooh Wish I had found this sooner! These are nifty!
What about making Bernard into a spooky Jack-o-Lantern on an old gnarled tree or something? It is that time of year XD

@Miss Sandman: If you like that show you might like the youtube series where an OBGYN analyzes the stories from that show about how believable it is they didn't know they were pregnant xD
Mama Doctor Jones
I got a little addicted to these for a minute xD

This was my favorite part of the Event this year :3 Thank You Vontell for running it~ It's warm and fuzzy and I keep coming back to read through everyone's messages to one another.

Oooh~! Thank you for the freebie! It helps :3 Im so behind xD

Whew. I finally completed everything! :D


@Lilypoo: :o I hope your job goes well! Congratulations!
Don't stress us, I'm sure everyone here understands! And Real life and yourself come first no matter what!

@Laufeia: Right!
Omg, I just finished the Sudoku and Crossword puzzles. Man that crossword was kicking my butt!

@NEBULA: I definitely will!

Yaaaas, I really love her look in Pity Party and the general theme there. Also she was adorable in Pacify her!