Lithium's posts

Posted in How many lanterns do you have Posted 5 years ago

15 lanterns and counting

Posted in How many lanterns do you have Posted 5 years ago

12 so and counting.

Posted in How many lanterns do you have Posted 5 years ago

9 attempting to motivate myself into more.

Posted in Static's Nature Scavenger Hunt -A Photography Contest- Posted 5 years ago

Love this!
Can’t wait to participte :)

Posted in Daily Lore & Evolving Goldfish Posted 5 years ago

Here in the darkness I know myself

Hi guys, popping in before bed hope to see you all tomorrow!

Can’t break free until I let it go.
Let me go..

Posted in CROPPED: Contestants, please open your baskets! Posted 5 years ago

This looks like so much fun!
Can’t wair to participate, love the entries so far :)

Posted in We had to put one of my cats to sleep :( Posted 5 years ago

Here in the darkness I know myself

I’m so very sorry for your loss.
It is hard and painful but your baby isn’t in pain anymore.
I lost my lovely in November and it still hurts, but it gets better.

Can’t break free until I let it go.
Let me go..

Posted in serious question about emails bc like help Posted 5 years ago

I haven’t heard of that but it would be super convent if you could.

Posted in Bad sleep habits? Posted 5 years ago

I can fall asleep but not stay asleep.
I wake up a lot from nightmares, and then lie in the dark and not be able to fall back asleep.
Then waking up in the morning for work is rough because I’ll actually get into a REM sleep thirty minutes before my alarm.
I always say I’m going to go home and take a nap and never do.

Posted in total newbie Posted 5 years ago

Here in the darkness I know myself

@stargirl: Welcome to Voltra! I love your username :)

Can’t break free until I let it go.
Let me go..

Posted in What expression does your avatar show the most? Posted 5 years ago

Here in the darkness I know myself

Mine is typically wide eyed with a painted lip / pout

Can’t break free until I let it go.
Let me go..

Posted in Family traditions Posted 5 years ago

Here in the darkness I know myself

My mom loved going to the beach, she would take me and my sisters all the time. Tomorrow we are going to the beach in remembrance of mom.

Can’t break free until I let it go.
Let me go..

Posted in Grief + Hospice Posted 5 years ago

Here in the darkness I know myself

Thank you everyone, I’m sorry I took a while to reply. Shortly after I made this post my mom passed. We had the funeral today and I’m feel pretty numb.

Can’t break free until I let it go.
Let me go..

Posted in Grief + Hospice Posted 5 years ago

My mother choose hospice at home and started this on Tuesday evening, she stopped all medical care; dialysis, wound care ( surgery and diabetic complications) , her insulin (diabetic). My mother entered the hospital on May 31st for an emergency surgery, she survived it, choose to fight but was not strong enough. After a short stay at a rehab that messed up my moms sugars, and the surgery not being successful (wound open not healing), my mom decided to come home.

This has been one of the most emotionally conflicting times for me. My sisters, father my girlfriend and I have been at my moms side ever since. Sleep has been minimal, emotions are high, and I feel like I am floating. I don’t want to be around anyone, and I know that’s my right and I am allowed to feel what I am, I just don’t know how to proceed with my emotions and the emotions of my family.

I’m cycling through all the emotions; right now its indifference. I don’t want to be touched, family is arriving in hordes and its slightly irritating me. I understand they have a right to see my mom and pay respects, it’s just distributing the little bit of normalcy I have left.

I just needed to get this out. I feel myself cycling, changing, turning into a different person; for better or worse.