Snakeweaver's posts
Posted in ***MATCHA'S GACHA***
Posted 6 years ago
@vengeance: That you do o-o They must be hard to get numbers.
Posted in Fathers Day Reminds me...
Posted 6 years ago
I grew up with two fathers and one mother. My first father is my step father, a disabled veteran that was mugged and killed while my mother was pregnant. The time he was dead left him with severe brain damage, she fought to be able to take custody from the VA hospital that was leaving him to die. When I was a child she called his area of the hospital 'the death ward', but when I became an adult she eventually started calling it ward 2C2. My birth fathers father was in the hells angels bike gang, he grew up having to be very smart and practically having an extra sense for the type of person someone was. He and my mom tried to have a relationship, but they found their scars of long gone pasts made that too hard. They did become very good friends though, something they were very good at. My blood father gave my mother a spine to stand up for herself with, and my mother brought back his good heart that was buried by life. The only group he was part of was his family, but did still have many friends. After I had a giant chunk of mu right leg removed due to cancer, he helped me regain my full mobility. Thinking about him makes me feel conflicted, but fathers day is obviously a date that would remind me of him. Why would I feel conflicted about such an amazing person? He was understanding of people before it was popular to who overcame a lot of hardships and always held humor. He died of heart cancer, so it wasn't like it involved any crimes. The man was amazingly intelligent, someone who studied so many old newspapers and papers in libraries that his eyesight suffered.
Well, he was only accepting of everyone that wasn't part of his family. He was accepting of me enjoying a lot of the things he enjoyed, dressing in my own odd way, but when I came out to him as transgender male? He totally rejected it. He was someone that understood me better than my mom. When I was growing up he had to tell my mom that she was the one that wanted me in dresses, skirts and makeup, that i hated that stuff. He was the one fully understanding of my love of cowboy hats, mens trench coats, pants, and so on. When I came out to my mom, a lot of things made more sense to her about me. Sometimes I wonder if he would have come around if he hadn't died, though I'm reminded that this is something I will never know. I didn't know where to put this, but still wanted to say it somewhere.
Well, he was only accepting of everyone that wasn't part of his family. He was accepting of me enjoying a lot of the things he enjoyed, dressing in my own odd way, but when I came out to him as transgender male? He totally rejected it. He was someone that understood me better than my mom. When I was growing up he had to tell my mom that she was the one that wanted me in dresses, skirts and makeup, that i hated that stuff. He was the one fully understanding of my love of cowboy hats, mens trench coats, pants, and so on. When I came out to my mom, a lot of things made more sense to her about me. Sometimes I wonder if he would have come around if he hadn't died, though I'm reminded that this is something I will never know. I didn't know where to put this, but still wanted to say it somewhere.
Posted in Pride Month
Posted 6 years ago
@Totalanimefan: That's wonderful^^ Did you have a favorite~?
Posted in ***MATCHA'S GACHA***
Posted 6 years ago
@Totalanimefan: Eh? Feel bad? o-o
Posted in ***MATCHA'S GACHA***
Posted 6 years ago
@Totalanimefan: I was trying to understand the cause but, eh well. I'm sorry he wasn't a good dad^^;
Posted in ***MATCHA'S GACHA***
Posted 6 years ago
@Totalanimefan: Ahh.. I don't know where your father would have got it from then?
Posted in Pride Month
Posted 6 years ago
Very nice, how did the contest go?
Posted in ***MATCHA'S GACHA***
Posted 6 years ago
@Totalanimefan: Ahh... what kind of person is your dads dad? that might explain a lack of emotion showing?
Posted in Pride Month
Posted 6 years ago
How has everyone been enjoying pride month? Is there anything special you noticed or have done~? Anyone want to share any coming out stories~? Any bad days? You don't need to share if you don't want to, but it might feel nice to.
Posted in ***MATCHA'S GACHA***
Posted 6 years ago
@Totalanimefan: I think it it goes with their generation maybe? When my dad was a kid, he took care of his younger siblings. As he got older he took care of his grandmother. In general he was always taking care of someone or something. When my great grandmother died he basically took over as the family historian, but he didn't teach anyone to take his place. I don't think he ever considered passing away. He had arthritis since he was a teenager(its why he wasn't allowed to participate in the Vietnam war) and his working and walking was how he kept his legs in hood working shape instead of being stuck in a wheelchair. What kind of life has your father had so far?
Posted in Hazer's Unholy Horde: A Hangout
Posted 6 years ago
@Unicorn: Hn, are the populations healthy? I know after our local creeks were messed with around 20 years ago our dragonfly population decreased a lot and mosquito population increased.
Posted in Hazer's Unholy Horde: A Hangout
Posted 6 years ago
@Unicorn: Certain types of snakes eat ticks and dragonflies are good at eating mosquitoes. Does where you live have a population of either?
Posted in ***MATCHA'S GACHA***
Posted 6 years ago
@Totalanimefan: I wish I could say I don't regret my fathers passing, but I do. That wont get him back, but it also wont make the issues go away either.
Posted in ***MATCHA'S GACHA***
Posted 6 years ago
@Totalanimefan: I'm glad he didn't die~ Heart attacks can be pretty terrifying. It sucks my dad did die, what sucks even more is it feels like they would have caught on to the real issue if they actually took a good look at his medical history. If they had, they would have seen that his heart had been placed in amazing health a few months before the first blood clot. They tried to blame it on drugs, or that it was due to the heart surgery he had around 20 years previously... but if they had read his medical file they would have known those answers make no sense. Our family also has a history of cancer... By the time they realized the real issue, it was too late to help him. They were so focused on the reasons they were positive it was that they refused to look at other possibilities until months o everything they had been doing not working. It was too late by that point. Back then, like every other family member, we didn't think to question the doctors. It was only after the fact that I realized how easy it would have been for them to look at his medical files. It was the same hospital that he had the heart surgery at and his check ups, they had all the files, all the information that would have helped make it more obvious that his heart had made a full recovery since then, that it was something else.