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Posted in don't dead open inside
Posted 5 years ago
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Posted in Buying and Selling partially Updated 11/7/20
Posted 5 years ago
oh i just realized that says BUYING in big large text at the top nvm
Posted in Language Learning
Posted 5 years ago
i'm another korean learner. half of my family is korean (by marriage).
i almost married a korean man as well, which sped my language learning up a lot since his parents only speak korean, but that dissolved and now i'm at a weird stage with it. i honestly got kind of put off by it and haven't studied in a while and can feel it fading.
i almost married a korean man as well, which sped my language learning up a lot since his parents only speak korean, but that dissolved and now i'm at a weird stage with it. i honestly got kind of put off by it and haven't studied in a while and can feel it fading.
Posted in bad dreams
Posted 5 years ago
i have bad dreams a lot - nearly every night, recently. i think it's caused by stress. i don't usually wake up from them though, or if i do it's right before my alarm.
i have nightmares sometimes. those are usually caused by a physical sensation for me, though, and they always wake me up. for example i had a nightmare i was being squeezed to death, but the nightmare was triggered due to an injury in my back. i was having a bad muscle spasm in my sleep. i also have nightmares when my blood sugar drops too low in my sleep (i have a metabolic disorder, so this isn't something you need to worry about for yourself) which wakes me up, i can tell i'm not right, i eat some sugary snacks i keep by my bed and that's that ezpz.
mostly i would say the bad dreams that don't qualify as nightmares are worse. i'm able to shake off the nightmares. they might leave me "off" for a little while but it's just fear, and fear can be stifled. i really especially don't like the bad dreams that involve topics deeper than just fear - loneliness. sadness. loss. grief. helplessness. those stick with me for a long time. they change my mindset and the way i look at the world.
sometimes i have dreams that look, feel, and generally are great in the moment, but upon waking up, i realize the dream is unattainable and then i am worse off than i was before. dreaming about things like safety, love, and comfort make my mindset really bad as i often have emotions in dreams that i can't summon when i'm awake. i will never have some of the things i dream about. that makes me really upset.
i have nightmares sometimes. those are usually caused by a physical sensation for me, though, and they always wake me up. for example i had a nightmare i was being squeezed to death, but the nightmare was triggered due to an injury in my back. i was having a bad muscle spasm in my sleep. i also have nightmares when my blood sugar drops too low in my sleep (i have a metabolic disorder, so this isn't something you need to worry about for yourself) which wakes me up, i can tell i'm not right, i eat some sugary snacks i keep by my bed and that's that ezpz.
mostly i would say the bad dreams that don't qualify as nightmares are worse. i'm able to shake off the nightmares. they might leave me "off" for a little while but it's just fear, and fear can be stifled. i really especially don't like the bad dreams that involve topics deeper than just fear - loneliness. sadness. loss. grief. helplessness. those stick with me for a long time. they change my mindset and the way i look at the world.
sometimes i have dreams that look, feel, and generally are great in the moment, but upon waking up, i realize the dream is unattainable and then i am worse off than i was before. dreaming about things like safety, love, and comfort make my mindset really bad as i often have emotions in dreams that i can't summon when i'm awake. i will never have some of the things i dream about. that makes me really upset.
Posted in heard the best words at work today.
Posted 5 years ago
i work in an industry that was being torn down rapidly by the government not too long ago. we were all really scared we were going to lose our jobs. my place alone paid out 19 million in payroll last year to 193 employees.
the words i heard were, "kegs, we need you to hire another person to do sales."
oh, sweet relief! things are not 100% back to normal. a lot of shops in the industry closed. we're still fighting on a legal level. but things are looking up, we're hiring again, we're back to expanding and i can take a second to breathe and worry about the less-frightening stuff i used to worry about before all this stuff happened.
i am so beyond happy.
the words i heard were, "kegs, we need you to hire another person to do sales."
oh, sweet relief! things are not 100% back to normal. a lot of shops in the industry closed. we're still fighting on a legal level. but things are looking up, we're hiring again, we're back to expanding and i can take a second to breathe and worry about the less-frightening stuff i used to worry about before all this stuff happened.
i am so beyond happy.
Posted in don't dead open inside
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Posted in don't dead open inside
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Posted in don't dead open inside
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Posted in don't dead open inside
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Posted in don't dead open inside
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Posted in don't dead open inside
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Posted in don't dead open inside
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Posted in don't dead open inside
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Posted in don't dead open inside
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