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Posted in Have you cheated before? Because I almost did. Posted 5 years ago

we have talked a bit since. I didnt tell him what i almost did.
Sex is kind of really important to me and my relationships. Which is why this is a big problem
Things arent better and im still lost.
I think i need to leave him but as we live together and have lives together its going to be hard and messy no matter what happens

Posted in Have you cheated before? Because I almost did. Posted 5 years ago

I have been cheated on and i know how much it hurts. And i VOWED to never do it. But I almost did the other day.

FYI might be a bit NSFW - talk of sex.

My boyfriend and i have been together for 3 years and the past year has been hard tbh. He is very stressed and depressed and in a lot of pain physically. He comes home and lays in bed. We used to have a great sex life but now he wont touch me. And i am a pile of shit and have been frustrated with how depressed he is. So when my ex reached out, i messaged him back.

And we talked a lot, all day for like the past two weeks. And then sometimes our conversations got a bit sexual, He was upset how his girlfriend wouldn't ever have sex because she didnt like it, and i confined in him about my situation. Then the conversation turned into a memory lane of the great sex we used to have.

He then said his girlfriend and him have an open relationship because she wont have sex with him, so she is ok with him having sex with other people. Then he invited me out to drinks. and i said yes.

I knew exactly where that would go. and honestly, i hoped it would turn into sex. We are supposed to go out tonight, but i cancelled on him out of guilt, even though i really wanted to go.

i currently hate myself for even feeling like i wanted to. so yeah.

Posted in Confessions (Make a Confession) Posted 5 years ago

I almost cheated on my boyfriend. I wanted to. He wont touch me because he is so depressed. and i feel even worse for being annoyed with how distant he is being because of his depression.

i was way too close to cheating on him with my ex boyfriend. And i dont know if i should tell him. nothing actually happened, but i wanted to.

i am a pile of shit.

Posted in Today, I am proud of myself Posted 6 years ago

@ EVRYONE
THANK YOU

Artemis:
Congrats! That’s wonderful!!

I’m glad you’ve kicked depression in the butt to go back to college! What are you going to major in?

I’d love to go back to college for art but I always feel like 40-50k a year isn’t something I could swing (the only school I want to attend is SCAD, aha..). I refuse to put myself in any kind of debt and I guess that holds me back.

I plan on being a teacher with a focus on teaching philosophy/history/government so im still deciding what i want to major in, and minor in.
Paying for college is what also stopped me, but i applied for a crap ton of grants and got way more than i ever expected. The school im going to is only 14k a year as well because i fall under a low income student and the school itself has a program for students like me so i dont have to pay the regular 50k. But i dont have to pay anything because of all the grants!

Id say start looking into any scholarship or grant you can. APPLY TO THEM ALL! you never know what might work out.
also my employer will give me 8k a year. so maybe your employer has some kind of program like that.

Posted in I am broke! Posted 6 years ago

Uhg BROKE?
*hides my 700 volts left after my shopping spree..*

Posted in Today, I am proud of myself Posted 6 years ago

Its been two years since i was last in college. i only really had about 2 quarters done. Life got hard and i had to quit.
Then i found a really good job. I have been promoted many times in the last two years, i make good money, and i was happy.
Well i thought I was, but recently i have been feeling very lost. This job is not what i wanted to do with my life. and it started to feel like i was now too old (im only 22 lol) and too stuck here, to go back.
But after lots of soul searching. today i enrolled in my first two classes, all paid for by a scholarship.
And when i enrolled, a weight lifted off my chest, i didnt feel so stuck any more.

And today i am proud of myself. I was letting my depression run my life and all the fears of failure control me. But not ANYMORE.

Posted in Fart Stories Here. Posted 6 years ago

my boyfriend is somehow mortified by the idea of farts. I guess he was never a little boy laughing at fart jokes
but one time, one of the only times ive herd him fart was 7 am, he was getting ready for work in our master bathroom. I didnt have to work so her thought i was asleep. So he goes into the bathroom and just rips.
For like 5 min. Just loud and long.
After his shower he comes out and sees im wide awake. Asks how long ive been awake and all i say is "the whole time"
He was mortified and just left for work.
Hes less weird about farts now but still wont fart in front of anyone

Posted in There are 49 of us now!! Posted 6 years ago

i think we all like to hide.

Posted in New here! *wave* Posted 6 years ago

welcome to your new life

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Posted in Where are all you 31 peeps? Posted 6 years ago

Well i sat down after a hard day of work and now my body cant physically get up. so im here.

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Posted in March Crate Items Feedback Thread Posted 6 years ago

Fortune Teller
[size=15]★★★★✩
Didn’t like it at first, but I do like the idea of it. Very unique item and love the gold chains. I feel like it would need a dash more blind.

Raver
★★★★✩
Love the top, but I feel like the orange and midnight recolor is not easy to work with or goes well together.

Woodland Fae
★★★★★
Stunning. That hair. Stunning. I wish I had this in my collection because SO PRETTY

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Posted in Does anyone Bullet Journal Posted 6 years ago

I try to bullet journal so hard. I have bought way too many notebooks with the intention of making them my bullet journal and telling myself I will stick to them!!!
But then a week later I drop it. The reason I feel I mainly drop it is I feel stressed to make it pretty. If it doesn’t look like the Instagram photos, I just don’t want to keep using it.
So while Instagram is the best source of inspiration, they have millions of people who have accounts dedicated to bullet journaling.
My biggest advice is to try and let go of the idea that it needs to be pretty. The original creator of the bulletin journal didn’t do any drawings or doodles or fancy art.
here is a good article written by the original creators.
But. While I say don’t feel pressure to make it pretty, the joy of a bullet journal is that it can be anything you need. Want to make it pretty, stickers, washi tape, colorful pens, those are great starting points!
There are stencils online too, to help you draw banners and things here is a cute shop
Also there are a million yourubers who do plan with me videos that can be a great source of inspiration!

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Posted in Looking for constant RP fella. (Im new at RP) Posted 6 years ago

Do you have any plots or vague story lines of things youd be interested in doing?

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Posted in Dragon Cave! Lets hatch eggs! Posted 6 years ago

@milkdaddy: what a cutie they are! always been curious about pokefarm, but just never thought to try it out. im a big pokemon fan though so im not sure why i have yet to.

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