Hi I'm very lost, pls help

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: Yeah, it was really good! Apparently my stepdad started craving pancakes after I ordered them, but the restaurant ran out of pancake batter to make him one. So he asked me to make him pancakes at home. O:

Yeah, I always hate waking up at night. And apparently one of my friends had told me a few times before that I mumble in my sleep sometimes and it would sound like I'm scared, even though I don't remember anything. It's honestly eerie, but it makes sense due to my past and trauma I guess ; - ;

Yeah! It makes me happy knowing that, he's just a great friend and he's so sweet! Even if we don't date or if he didn't even tell me that, I would've loved to stay as friends either way. Just like I make him feel comfortable to be himself, he makes me feel the same way :D

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: Apparently :'D
Yeah, I've never been one to do that I think. That was until my friend told me. It's honestly a bit concerning because something must be really troubling me if I mumble in my sleep. I've also been told that I snore a bit, but it's a quiet snore and apparently it's cute? I dunno, an ex-friend told me that so I have no idea.

Yeah! I don't really have much self-confidence, and I've never had anyone tell me before that they would date me (who aren't friends and say that as a platonic thing), so this definitely made me feel special. :D I didn't really think anyone would be interested in me like that

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: Yeah, that's true. Lately though it feels like it's kinda difficult to find someone who would like me and not expect me to be anything but asexual >>;;; I dunno, love is weird, and I'm always wondering if I'm aromantic or not. It's a real struggle

Kairu

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@Seihou: its okay to be single >u< im sure one day you will find the right one!

Seihou

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@Kairu: Thank you! I know it's okay to be single, and I'm definitely sure I'd be happy as long as I have my friends, but sometimes I just wonder about my... feelings towards romance? I guess you could call it? I dunno, something like that TuT

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@Totalanimefan: Aw, that's actually kinda cute! :'D

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: Aw, that's pretty great! I'm happy for you guys :D

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: I'm sure it will, I'm not losing hope yet. I mean, I literally did just get a crush of mine tell me he'd date me, so that's very uplifting for sure :'D

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: Yeeeeah, that might need some taking used to for sure. I struggle with PTSD so I have social anxiety and trust issues, ontop of the fact that it's kinda hard to make friends nowadays. If there was a chance I can do that, I wouldn't mind trying, but at the moment it's difficult enough to get me out of the house without any obligations D':

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: Yeah, it makes sense. I have several online friends already, they all just happen to be in school or younger than me and also in school, so that's great ^ ^; And also thank you! I'm actually very bad at talking irl, but good to know I can still communicate through writing on forums :'D

Yeah, it's the same for me, which is interesting because whenever I say I have a crush on someone, I really mean a squish, but people don't normally know what a squish is. I had this ex-friend who thought that when I had crushes, I want to immediately get in a relationship with them and kiss them and whatever, which isn't entirely true. For me, when I have a "crush" (or a squish, more accurately), I am attracted to them romantically, yes, but I focus on getting to know them more. My main goal in pursuing a squish is to become good friends with them first, because if I'm going to fall in love with someone, I want to get to know them first.

Although, the last time I had a crush/squish was with this ex-friend in particular, which showed me that sometimes I act like I'm in love or have rose-colored glasses on when I have a crush/squish, and that ex-friend was being very toxic in the situation. That's why now I'm more weary about having crushes and things. If I could, I wish I can have control over my emotions, but this was definitely a good learning experience. I handled the situation kinda okay honestly. I had friends and a good therapist help me come to the conclusion that this ex-friend is a toxic person, so I'm grateful for that.

Kairu

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@Seihou: nothings wrong having feels for romance >u<

having the one meant mostly you will get stuck to their in laws and fam. if the latter has bad in laws.. i dunno if you will enjoy it..

its better to get it right from start

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NixieFae

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@Seihou: Hi welcome! From another fellow social anxiety person! I hope you enjoy it here. What kinda of crafts do you like to do? I try to be crafty but I end up failing at it terribly

Seihou

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@Kairu: Yeah, makes sense. My thing basically is that I want to marry/date my best friend! The whole in-law thing is kinda scary to me honestly. Hopefully my future partner's parents are nice! ^ ^;

@NixieFae: Thank you! And yay, another person who knows the struggle TuT I've been enjoying the site so far, it reminds me a lot of the first forum site I've been in called LunaeSaga. It's great! I like to do papercrafts like origami or just something nice for snail mail, I used to crochet a lot and made plushies, and I can knit too. I have done other random stuff. I can make a flower crown with the fake flowers, I try to make friendship bracelets with thread, but that is kinda hard for me surprisingly. I want to get into embroidery and properly learn how to sew so I can make my own clothes and stuff, and maybe even making things out of clay (particularly masks, but that's a big project and I'd need to find the stuff for it). I basically like to try new things with crafts if I can afford it and have the energy. It helps with my anxiety if I invest my time in crafts. I also end up giving away the stuff I make as gifts, and that also makes me feel good! ^ ^

@Totalanimefan: Yeah that's basically it! I do notice that I do have a type, but normally I look past that and try to become friends. Though a lot of the time my social anxiety kinda prevents me from really talking to people. I did have a coworker I had a crush on who was really nice and talked to me about random stuff. It helps that he was friendly enough to talk to me whenever I do get some courage and try to talk to him about something I'm interested in. TuT It also helped that I was good at making an origami samurai hat and that sparked a conversation for sure

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: Yeah, that always helps. Or if you do what I did and just impress them with a random thing you can do, that also does the trick I guess :'D
Oh yeah, for sure! I like befriending coworkers, though I usually don't talk very often so it's mostly them just talking about things and then every once in a while I talk about something for a bit too. Ironically, I actually love talking to new people and talking in general, but that basically contradicts my social anxiety TuT

NixieFae

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@Seihou: haha I'm always like the struggle real! But its nice when you meet other people who feel the same way you do, you feel less...alone I guess? Lol

You do stuff that I've tried an failed at, a while back i was trying papercrafts too like that journal thing..uhh i cant remember what the exact name of it is called now. But my pages looked terrible and i just couldn't make it look pretty/find things too actually fill the pages with. although I can embroider and used to do that alot years ago, I also used to be able to cross stitch, but I haven't done either in FOREVR I don't even know if I could do it anymore. About the only crafty thing I do anymore is coloring and sometimes make those little trading card papercrafts thingys

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: You know, stuff like that does kinda help, but sometimes in the moment, I can't bring myself to think that way. Whenever I start overthinking the situation after the fact though, I look back and I think "Whatever I might be worried about, they might not have even noticed in the first place. If they did, they probably would've said something about it" and that helps me O:

@NixieFae: Oh yeah, definitely! My therapist says that finding people who have similar experiences and talking about things with them always helps, because it makes you feel empowered in a way. It really does help!
And are you talking about bullet journaling? Because I'm doing my best to do that nowadays, but my depression hit pretty bad lately so it's not really helping me with my motivation. But papercraft stuff is so nice!! And it's relatively cheap if you're resourceful enough. It takes lots of collecting, finding and practice though, so I totally get what you mean D': But whoa! That's pretty cool! I would like to learn, but energy and money are the main obstacles at the moment ; - ; Coloring is always nice though! And trading card things? That sounds cool too! I want to make trading cards at some point! O:

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan:Yeah! My therapist says that I'm doing pretty well with keeping my anxiety in check that way. Like, when I get depressed and start having negative thoughts such as "oh, my friends probably don't like me, they're just friends with me out of pity", I literally turn around and I'm like "What??? They've been your friends for YEARS, we're past the "pity" stage by that point. They're probably not texting you because they're B U S Y with school and work, you obviously know that. Chill out, go drink water or take a nap and THEN come back to think about stuff like that if you want, but you're probably not gonna do that because you know better."

And yes, things have been a lot better now! None of our pipes burst, so we're VERY lucky. My mom thinks it's because our trailer is literally maybe 2 years old now, so everything is practically new, even the pipes! :>

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: Yeah, for sure! It does wonders for me if I talk about my anxiety openly too. Especially with friends, since sometimes what I'm most anxious about is somehow related to my friends. So far, everyone has been super supportive and one of my friends even knows what I talk about since we have to much in common, I might even consider him one of my best friends eventually and that's definitely saying something. He's pretty great TuT

But yeah, we definitely got lucky! My mom had said that part of the roof of my grandma's house literally fell through in this one room, and now they're trying to figure out how to fix it. I feel bad for my grandma, she literally had COVID in new years, and now this?? I'm worried, but unfortunately due to family feuds, I don't really speak to her directly, but my sister does and I guess I can indirectly talk to her that way. Ugh, 2021 is tough T ^ T

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: When it comes to people who probably don't understand, I try to give them analogies to try and give them perspective. O: It's kinda hard because a lot of the people in my life who don't understand happen to be family who doesn't take mental illnesses seriously. Even then, I try to be as open about my mental illness as possible so they could at least get used to me talking about it. My favorite thing to do is announce that I have therapy whenever I actually do have to do therapy and I happen to be around family at the time :'D

I'm not sure, I'm assuming she's still in her house since it's only one specific room where the roof caved in.

Seihou

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@Totalanimefan: Yeah, definitely! I also find that the more comfortable I feel, the more I speak too, which is great TuT I'm actually thinking about starting a podcast with friends, but then I'd need to get friends into this. :'D

Yeah, my grandma is apparently asking her job to help pay for repairs. Apparently they have an Employee's emergency fund that they can apply for. I only know this because my middle sister went to visit her and she was asking me questions about the wording of the paperwork O:

NixieFae

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@Seihou: i find it can help alot!
No, It's called "junk journal", I couldn't remember what it was called at the time. It's basically like a mismatch jounral full of papercrafts things, stickers etc. But I wasn't very good at finding things to put in it etc. So I kinda gave it up haha. Bullet journals are kind fun, I had started one myself but I haven't used it in a while lol. I love seeing how people decorate the pages and stuff on like Instagram and whatnot.

I was homeschooled so my mom actually got me into doing embroidery as sort of like a home ec lesson/elective. But I ended up likeing it and sticking with it. And i get that, sometimes you wanna try something but money isn't always free to actually do it or even time. Yeah trading cards lol, they're actually called artist cards, but since people usually trade them or whatever with others I just call them trading cards lol! I saw in a papercrafts magazine that they used the things you would for papercrafting or even scrapbooking and I thought it was pretty neat instead of actually like drawing, painting them or whatever. Especially since I can't draw or paint haha.

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