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Accidentally awoke a new level of psychosis and identity crisis tonight and admittedly not living for it
Think I need to practice masking and on my public appearance. I say that but like …. How do
Furthermore I just don’t know. What am I trying to say.
My sense of self is better than it used to be but still not good.
Should try drawing myself as I am as a character. Instead of like …. Projecting myself on what’s basically an oc?
My sense of self is better than it used to be but still not good.
Should try drawing myself as I am as a character. Instead of like …. Projecting myself on what’s basically an oc?
* liked oh my god auto correct
I prefer iPhone in most ways but the dictionary ai or whatever is balls
I prefer iPhone in most ways but the dictionary ai or whatever is balls
Wow I actually might kinda love myself right now?
Hmmmmm
Bad days always lead to self growth
I’m tired of it lmao 😅
Hmmmmm
Bad days always lead to self growth
I’m tired of it lmao 😅
We’re thinking I should write that hell club story that’s kind of a fic of my oc world
Maybe just on google drive? Or I downloaded the word press app? Not sure which would be better
Maybe just on google drive? Or I downloaded the word press app? Not sure which would be better
dreamed that me, bear, and brother K pack hunted and succeeded in killing the shade last night.
Very gorey dream. After she was dead finally I cried and cried and cried. Dad was like ah I know it’s hard but and I was like no I’m happy. I’m so relieved. I’m so happy.
Mentioned to others in the family, and they were very pert about it. “Well it had to be done” kind of vibe.
I really processed some stuff yesterday. I hope this means I’m really done thinking about her.
I’ve had many violent dreams about her but this was the first time she’s been killed. And with such certainty. Shotgun to the head will do it.
Very gorey dream. After she was dead finally I cried and cried and cried. Dad was like ah I know it’s hard but and I was like no I’m happy. I’m so relieved. I’m so happy.
Mentioned to others in the family, and they were very pert about it. “Well it had to be done” kind of vibe.
I really processed some stuff yesterday. I hope this means I’m really done thinking about her.
I’ve had many violent dreams about her but this was the first time she’s been killed. And with such certainty. Shotgun to the head will do it.
Tw violence death mention gun mention
Dream about killing my abuser
Omg I’m already so tired of spring
Why is it so cold if it was so hot last night
Why is it so cold if it was so hot last night
That ducking cat painting just fell on my face!!!!!!!! Ahhhhhhh!!!!! I’m annoyed!’nnn
I thought wearing a mask might help with colds and things but evidently not!!!!
Anyway.
VII Wands - aggression, defiance, conviction. Resisting authority and taking your shot
Magician - action, concentration, power. Acknowledging motivations, awareness
Fool - beginning, spontaneity, following hearts desire, setting aside distractions
A lovely reading I think. Relevant to the past few days and my dream last night.
It’s time to be me and move forward with my life.
VII Wands - aggression, defiance, conviction. Resisting authority and taking your shot
Magician - action, concentration, power. Acknowledging motivations, awareness
Fool - beginning, spontaneity, following hearts desire, setting aside distractions
A lovely reading I think. Relevant to the past few days and my dream last night.
It’s time to be me and move forward with my life.
I’m tired! And annoyed! And sick! Ahhhh
And I think Randy will be back today!
Ahhhhh
And I think Randy will be back today!
Ahhhhh
Customers have been so touchy lately. What vibe am I giving off that says it’s okay to touch me 😩
Another week coming to an end. Another week closer to my cdl and leaving retail forever.
Everything is making me think of fallout. I should really start a new game this weekend
Tbh I wish there was a simplified version of it for the switch or something. Zelda level mechanics.
ping me for best results
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Having you as a Voltie would be awesome.