Ina's posts

@Lance: ah :0
i remember looking stuff up about that game
never really interested me from what i saw lol
maybe i just need to find a rlly good letsplay

@okios: no.. but what song r u thinking of?
;0

@Lance: whats tewey? :0

@Lance: Implosion for the nintendo switch
i was sorta debating it but im rayark scum
which is the company that published the game

Henlo
im gettin back into this
waiting for a game to finish downloading

@Juneberry: yeah ;v;
part of what makes it so hard is that imo, i feel worthless if i dont contribute to society because there are so many people in the world whats the point if you'll be forgotten in time once everyone who knew you is dead
but thats just how i feel :vanora_sweat:
@RainbowPanda: its ok ;o; im sort of thinking it as payback for my mom sending me to the hospital in the first place
also it means the other paitents get to enjoy the snacks <3

Henlo
im leaving my re-intro thread and i guess i should participate in the event :0
im also at a loss at what to do so im just reading manga instead of doing anything productive

@Vii: Thanks ;v; it'll b nice to make more friends
since its so hard irl rn >:T

@RainbowPanda: yeah ;v; i sorta am too
i left the snacks my mom brought me at the hospital tho cri

@Juneberry: yeah i wish i was more prepared though :vanora_stunned: i feel like im just being thrown into it and it terrifies mee

@RainbowPanda: heya! ive been better, but im just happy to be home lol

@nyx: omg hey nice to see ya again :D i see ur a mod here nice.
yeah ive sort of been crashing under the weight of my responsibilities lately n i suffer
@Tuijp: thanks <3 im glad to see its up n running again.
and im better, i didnt really think i needed to be in the hospital but my school thought so n convinced my mom xox
@Lydiachan22: nice, we'll get along famously then B)
and thanks, it was from before the blackout, I havent had a chance to look at new commons and review my inv much yet

@Juneberry: yeah, i liked the night staff at my place a bit more than the morning staff lol. Since I was only there for a few days, I didn't really meet everyone who worked in the ward, but most I got along with.
lucky about ur own room though. I had a roomate my entire stay ;;v it was one person who ended up leaving, but was pretty much immediately replaced so I never got to be alone in my room. oh well. I felt a lil bad cause the new roomie seemed to suffer pretty heavily from anxiety and I still have some anxiety where I ignore my wants/needs in favor of others, so I ended up sitting in bed for half an hour with the super bright lights on because they were on when my roomie was in there before so I thought they liked it that way so i suffered until I gave up lol
And geeze, hope that doctor got fired for mal-practice ;o;

yea, im not sure if i really learned much, cause i didnt feel like i needed to go to the hospital. I've been really stressed from the transition to adult hood. but otherwise id been doing really well mentally-wise, so i was suprised when my mom legit sent me. I think the only reason why I stayed as long as I did was cause I shut down when i dont want to process emotions. which makes it hard when someone's tryin to get some kind of response out of me other than 'yes' or 'no'
i had art therapy, which I was excited for but i ended up with a hippie lady who reminded me of a sub for my high school and i mean, yeah im pretty liberal but i really don't belive that much in the spiritual aspect of things. and ofc they had to show me the cool other art therapy guy the DAY I LEFT >:T he even had some chill beats playing when we did art, he was a lot better imo for meee.
and yeah, im happy this place is back up and running again tbh :D voltra had the least bad memories cause it was so fresh lol. and by least i really mean none. I know that could change, but im a different person now.

and honestly, yeah :D I'm usually not the kinda person who believes in fate but i mean, chances of stuff happening are so low it just feels like it sometimes, right?

@Juneberry: yea honestly the internet is a great way to overcome fears imo. As long as youre surrounded by people who care and everything, don't want to be around jerks when youre trying to get stronger

yeah, i really liked the other paitents that were there when I first got there. Most left by the time I left, but it was sort of nice to know out of how little the chance was, our lives still met at one point in life. And geeze, im sorry about your meds ;o; at least they finally got changed?

haha thanks <3 ill def make this place home again

@Miss Kitty: For some it does, for others it doesnt. I reccomend you try it out just once or twice at least. For me, I think I honestly just found the right people for me.

@Juneberry: Yeah, five days is nothing compared to my sis' 1 month stay xox but when the only thing you have to pass the time is books, puzzles and the others around you, 5 days feels like a whole lot longer xox.
Yeaah, I didn't really think this kind of area would mean more than social anxiety to me.
But if I don't want to get sent to the hospital again i feel like this would be a good place to start lol

@Juneberry: ha thanks. I joined back before the shut down earlier, so I'm not necesarrily 'new'. just... fresh.
And yeah, it was mental health issues. I was feeling pretty, dead-ish and confided in my counselor about it. Next thing I know my mom's cryin' and sending me to the hospital. at least ive learned in that aspect.
@Miss Kitty:tty: Aw thank <3 Glad to know someone finds it inspirational.
Yeah i initally started because of social anxiety. I've been going through tons of therapy stuff which helped me get better, so I thought i didnt need this anymore. Turns out i was wrong haha.
Still, I did miss the personality I had on forums. It's hard to replicate in reality or in text messages.
@Saeyra:Yeah, I was mostly worried about being 'too personal' or something. I tend to read sites TOS AFTER I make my first post so I never really know what's considered appropriate to talk about or not.

It's been a while since I've frequented on avatar forums.
I thought about kicking it back up with another site, but it's going on long-term matience.
And my second choice... I refuse to go back to.
I remembered Voltra, so I'm glad its back at it again.

I thought now that I was going forward in reality, I didn't need people on another screen to cope as much anymore.
I was wrong.
I just spent 5 days in the hospital
and I just got released today.

As much as I feel like I didn't learn anything from it
i learned that I just need a community to help me see through the worst of times.
And there's nowhere else that's as easy to find
as online.

So hello.
I'm Ina. Maybe you know me, maybe you don't.
I like art, video games, music and cats.
I think faces are for nerds so my avis will go without them if I can.
I hope to get to know all the new faces around this kind of community
and to reunite with personalities I abandoned.

I'm sorry for this downer post
but I don't have the energy to be peppy right now.

Thanks.