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Posted in A to Z Food & Drinks! Posted 5 years ago

Fettuccine

Posted in Word Association Posted 5 years ago

Growing up Creepie

Posted in Therapy/Stress/Vent Posted 5 years ago

@mizuie: It sounds like you're heading in the right direction and I'm glad!

Though I don't feel I have options for other therapists. I chose her specifically because I knew she wasn't going to bullshit me or bring religion into it. So far she's doing good on both ends, and though she brings up God it's for a good reason (like saying that she believes God puts people in our lives to teach us things).

I'm also trying to move away from my abusive parents but it's tough because the rent around here is expensiiivveee and I've got two dogs. Wish renters would see how sweet my Staffordshire terrier is.

Posted in Therapy/Stress/Vent Posted 5 years ago

@Totalanimefan: Oh yeah, I've talked about setting boundaries with her and still currently working through them with my friends + girlfriend.

I honestly didn't expect her to tell me I had PTSD though. Guess it kinda shattered my whole perspective of it.

Posted in Therapy/Stress/Vent Posted 5 years ago

@Tsundererra: You hit the nail right on the head. I feel the exact same way. It's not that I'm nervous about talking to her either (she has a service dog there for this reason) but I just go completely blank.

Although I have to admit I do feel better than since I first started, so I know it's working. But I'll bring up the antidepressants. They're also supposed to also treat anxiety and though I do feel less anxious in general I still get the spikes of panic I used to until I practice calming down.

My friends have also told me about their side effects and I'm honestly glad I haven't experienced any either!

Posted in What was the last movie you saw? Posted 5 years ago

Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark! Did a double feature date where we also watched Dora and the Lost City of Gold.

Posted in Therapy/Stress/Vent Posted 5 years ago

I'm nervous to go back to therapy next week. I haven't seen my therapist in a minute, and I feel like every time I go to her I'm lying.

I know it's a process to get healthy but I've been on a downward slope lately. I still haven't touched the PTSD workbook that she lent me. Getting inside my own mind is tough and whenever anyone asks me very personal questions I draw a blank. I can hardly answer any questions in that book.

She told me to stop taking on other's problems as my own, but when my girlfriend is stressed and unhappy, so am I. I don't know if I can help it. I also don't know if I can look at my therapist in the eyes and say I'm fine.

The antidepressants I have, I can't really tell if they're working. I've never had a problem with energy or anything before so I'm not sure what they're supposed to do? They don't really make me happy, that's something I have to do on my own, but I guess my anxiety has been down but I still get nervous to speak in public.

I've had a couple of ups but I'm down again. I just want to feel like a normal person. At least once.

If anyone reads this let me know how your therapy's going, or not, up to you.

Posted in Word Association Posted 5 years ago

labrador