Tabby's posts

Posted in ffs Posted 5 years ago

bath & body works, the body shop, and lush are still shipping. or you could buy some handmade soap on etsy. amazon pantry has some basic soap in stock (but this has been coming/going as stock levels shift) but an order i placed yesterday through amazon pantry won't be getting to me until the end of the month so that might not be the best option if you need it quickly.

Posted in How is everyone? Posted 5 years ago

i hate it.

i want to go back to work. we're all working from home. i've had to set very clear boundaries and mute everything work-related at 5 because otherwise i will just keep working and answering clients at 10pm since i no longer have a distinction between working and relaxing hours.

i want to go to bars. i want to go out to eat. i want to dance. i want to sing karaoke. i can't do ANYTHING i used to do. i hate it i hate it i hate it. i live alone and have no one to control my current spiraling insanity. i am not really coping. no idea what to do. i am a huge extrovert and this is REALLY REALLY MAKING ME HATE EVERYTHING.

Posted in goodbye mental health Posted 5 years ago

this is a really rough time for me. we got the shut-down notice last friday and i cried myself to sleep thinking about how i couldn't go to work on monday. i really miss seeing my coworkers and my friends already and it's only tuesday. my entire office has been chatting online nonstop since monday morning, sharing pictures of our home setups, beers we're enjoying etc but it doesn't replace the face to face

there's not much of anything i do on my own. my life is usually a blur of different faces and activities outside of my house. i picked up minecraft at the suggestion of an online friend and have basically replaced my entire workday with that since even though i'm working from home, there's not much to do. my entire industry was in meltdown mode even before all this happened.

today i stretched a lot because i've made a completely arbitrary goal of learning how to do a split but i haven't really eaten since friday and i'm not hungry. i literally didn't shower for 4 days which is disgusting and not like me at all. it's below freezing outside so going out there for longer than like 10 minutes is not an option and also not pleasant

i don't know what to do to make this better. i feel like i can't force myself to do anything else, i am sluggish and unmotivated. i don't have anything to look forward to. i don't have anyone to talk to in person.

Posted in don't dead open inside Posted 5 years ago