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an old bottle of lube that's starting to oxidize
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Posted in Word Disassociation
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macaroon
Posted in Count to 1 million
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Posted in Shes here!!!
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nice work!! get some rest, let the people around you help you. very happy for you ♥
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grapefruit
Posted in The things I do during a blizzard...
Posted 5 years ago
we got hit by the storm here too. i took my car out and did donuts in a parking lot yesterday morning and this morning :) i also made some butternut squash soup since soup is best on snowy days imo, that ate up some time.
Posted in i am beginning to hate myself
Posted 5 years ago
@TomYum: what do i do about it? it seems like a trap and idk how to get out of it. that's really the only dating option available to me. once i go on a date with someone from tinder or okc or whatever, i become almost repulsed by the idea of ever seeing them again.
during the brief times i'm interested in someone, they're always people that are unattainable, such as people already in committed relationships. i had a bit of a crush on a coworker for like 6 months and then i got confirmation that he was interested in me too and any romantic interest i had straight up flew out the window.
@Tsundererra: i've thought about seeing one for a while now, but the only experience i've had with one was downright terrible and did more harm than anything else. i'm scared that will happen again and leave me in a worse place. especially since right now my feelings are only directed inwards, where they're (generally) safe to be.
during the brief times i'm interested in someone, they're always people that are unattainable, such as people already in committed relationships. i had a bit of a crush on a coworker for like 6 months and then i got confirmation that he was interested in me too and any romantic interest i had straight up flew out the window.
@Tsundererra: i've thought about seeing one for a while now, but the only experience i've had with one was downright terrible and did more harm than anything else. i'm scared that will happen again and leave me in a worse place. especially since right now my feelings are only directed inwards, where they're (generally) safe to be.
Posted in i am beginning to hate myself
Posted 5 years ago
@Totalanimefan: aren't we all our own worst enemy? to me, that sounds like a perfectly acceptable way to live. it's so hard to do it all. i would never think of you in the same bad way i think about myself. i feel like this happens a lot - we're so mean to ourselves but will accept other people however they are. we'll advocate for others and support them no matter what, but when it comes to ourselves, we're so destructive and actively try to tear ourselves down.
my best friend is always saying how she got through that by making herself say something nice about herself every morning, and eventually, that type of thinking just came naturally. she's super stable so i've been trying it too but it clearly hasn't worked for me (yet?) lol. i hate how i can recognize that this is a problem but still fall into the same trap repeatedly.
@Glume: i just went down a rabbit hole on that wiki. thank you.
i have some thinking to do.
@eyry: i added you on discord. maybe we can help each other out. or just send memes back and forth ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
@Miss Sandman: how long has it been so far?
@TomYum: yeah this is definitely a problem for me. is it silly to apply this to dating? i have way too many options. i never take the time to get close to anyone because i don't find they're worth my time after meeting them. there are 1000 other people i've matched with who might be more entertaining or more understanding or will mesh better or something. i will disregard someone over the smallest thing. it definitely wasn't like this all through history, there's more options now than ever before. i'm flooded with messages and it's so easy to think "i'm not gonna swipe right on this guy because he has too many girls in his pictures" or "i'm going to stop responding now because he said something boring that i don't really know how to respond to" almost like it's an effort to cut down the number of choices i have...
my best friend is always saying how she got through that by making herself say something nice about herself every morning, and eventually, that type of thinking just came naturally. she's super stable so i've been trying it too but it clearly hasn't worked for me (yet?) lol. i hate how i can recognize that this is a problem but still fall into the same trap repeatedly.
@Glume: i just went down a rabbit hole on that wiki. thank you.
i have some thinking to do. @eyry: i added you on discord. maybe we can help each other out. or just send memes back and forth ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
@Miss Sandman: how long has it been so far?
@TomYum: yeah this is definitely a problem for me. is it silly to apply this to dating? i have way too many options. i never take the time to get close to anyone because i don't find they're worth my time after meeting them. there are 1000 other people i've matched with who might be more entertaining or more understanding or will mesh better or something. i will disregard someone over the smallest thing. it definitely wasn't like this all through history, there's more options now than ever before. i'm flooded with messages and it's so easy to think "i'm not gonna swipe right on this guy because he has too many girls in his pictures" or "i'm going to stop responding now because he said something boring that i don't really know how to respond to" almost like it's an effort to cut down the number of choices i have...
Posted in i am beginning to hate myself
Posted 5 years ago
@inatlaka: i have noticed i'm a lot more open to people touching and being affectionate with me if i have known them for a while, but the men in my life i actually have the ability to spend time with are people i have no business dating (coworkers, husbands/boyfriends of my female friends, etc). not to say i haven't made some "interesting" decisions regarding coworkers before but i'm really trying to pull away from that since i don't want it to come back to bite me. it's just so hard, i have so little time.
@Totalanimefan: ughhh i'm struggling with not comparing myself hard. my best friend just got married last week, my other good friends are ALL (LITERALLY ALL OF THEM) in great, happy long term relationships. you are extremely right with that final sentence. i would be happier alone than with someone i don't care for. i just wish i could care for someone. even if i start to, it fades really fast. i'll wake up one morning and oops it's all gone and i don't even want to see the person anymore. sometimes i wonder why i even bother trying.
@Glume: i will definitely look into it, thank you for the suggestion. i like to know why things are the way they are but it never dawned on me to look this particular issue up.
@Miss Sandman: maybe not :P girl aren't you in labor, don't worry about me omg
@eyry: not that i wish this upon you, but i'm relieved there's someone else out there like me. i have never met anyone else that pushes people away to the same extent i do. all my friends are in very normal relationships and they're all i have to model myself after. all they can do is sympathize and offer advice that they truly mean well with, but isn't something that i can apply because i'm not working with the same set of tools they have. so you're not missing much on that front. i guess i do just have to keep going, keep trying different things, with the hope that it will one day work out. i do want it to happen. i worry about becoming jaded. do you use discord?
@Bioshock: i guess that is one thing i'm good at lol. i'm very good at being like "nope this isn't working". i'll never be the person stuck in a relationship for the sake of being in a relationship. yet, there is something i envy about that mindset.
@Totalanimefan: ughhh i'm struggling with not comparing myself hard. my best friend just got married last week, my other good friends are ALL (LITERALLY ALL OF THEM) in great, happy long term relationships. you are extremely right with that final sentence. i would be happier alone than with someone i don't care for. i just wish i could care for someone. even if i start to, it fades really fast. i'll wake up one morning and oops it's all gone and i don't even want to see the person anymore. sometimes i wonder why i even bother trying.
@Glume: i will definitely look into it, thank you for the suggestion. i like to know why things are the way they are but it never dawned on me to look this particular issue up.
@Miss Sandman: maybe not :P girl aren't you in labor, don't worry about me omg
@eyry: not that i wish this upon you, but i'm relieved there's someone else out there like me. i have never met anyone else that pushes people away to the same extent i do. all my friends are in very normal relationships and they're all i have to model myself after. all they can do is sympathize and offer advice that they truly mean well with, but isn't something that i can apply because i'm not working with the same set of tools they have. so you're not missing much on that front. i guess i do just have to keep going, keep trying different things, with the hope that it will one day work out. i do want it to happen. i worry about becoming jaded. do you use discord?
@Bioshock: i guess that is one thing i'm good at lol. i'm very good at being like "nope this isn't working". i'll never be the person stuck in a relationship for the sake of being in a relationship. yet, there is something i envy about that mindset.
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straw of my iced coffee
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