I need to think of better ways to get activity in Hogwarts up.
But sometimes I just feel like it's all pointless and that no matter what I do, it's not gonna work.
And I can't fully decide if it's the hate of JKR that's keeping people away, or if it's just... Me. :/

Like don't even talk to me about the crap ass banner I did for the Hogwarts event thread.
Ugh.
It's so crappy I think I hate myself a little more for putting that up for public viewing.

Oh boy oh boy.
I can't wait for cooler weather!
Mabon is gonna hit and I hope it brings the cool.
Tired of all this 100+ weather.
I could use some 80 days.

I really don't like the after effects of a near break down.
Honestly having a full breakdown is easier to deal with than skirting around one.
I feel more empty and hollow now than if I were to have lost my shit last night.
I'll try to keep that in mind.
I'll just be sure to lose my shit next time.

Blegh, I hate how awful those St John's Wort pills taste.
They're supposed to improve your mood and all, but when they touch my tongue it makes me wanna die a lil more.

GOD TRIED TO HAVE ME KILLED TODAY AND I AM NOT OKAY

You know, I never truly understood all those posts that people posted about them debating on quitting their jobs every time they went in.
I get it now. I think I debate on quitting thirty times a day and I've only been working for 2 - 3 hours at a time.
These kids are INSANE. I think I'd much prefer a more steady gig as a babysitter going to one house with a max 3 kids all week.
That would be better. I'd prefer that.
Because 8-10 kids at someone else's house is... Insane.
Takes everyone out of their comfort zone and makes it all that much more difficult.

So now sleep is out of the question.
Not that it was in the picture before, really.
I've been sleeping like crap for the past week or so.
And I wish I knew why.
I have even taken some melatonin to help!
Sometimes twice the 'recommended' dose!
And it did NOTHING.
I'm headed for a breakdown.
I can feel it.

Hmm, testing out the Samsung internet app as opposed to chrome on my phone...
Saw an article that said it was pretty bomb.
Jury is still deliberating on that one, but it's not bad.
My muscle memory is going nuts bc if the taskbar or whatever you wanna call it being at the bottomw instead of the top.
But the customization is nice.
Let's me decide how I want my tabs to show, a stack, a grid, or a list. Which is fun.
I can rearrange things like the 'find in page' options and what not. Also cool.
So we'll see.

I barely walked around today and my knee is screwing up on me.
How is this fair?
I do not like to be in pain, I do not want this pain.
I haven't even done anything to aggravate it!
I usually gotta walk around a whole hell of a lot more than just going to freaking Walmart for my knee to decide it hates me. >:l