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Dating isn’t worth it anymore.
Catching feelings for people isn’t worth it anymore.
I’m so tired of getting hurt.
Dating isn’t worth it anymore.
Catching feelings for people isn’t worth it anymore.
I’m so tired of getting hurt.
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It’s so ironic that “That’s What You Get” by Paramore is playing at the bar right now…
Yep, that’s what I get for letting my heart win… Silly me.
It’s so ironic that “That’s What You Get” by Paramore is playing at the bar right now…
Yep, that’s what I get for letting my heart win… Silly me.
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Tonight I’m working with a bartender that I’ve never worked with before and I kinda hope I never work with her again. Aside from her answering a few questions I asked her earlier, she hasn’t talked to me all night. Hasn’t even tried to get to know me. Shit’s awkward. 🫠
Tonight I’m working with a bartender that I’ve never worked with before and I kinda hope I never work with her again. Aside from her answering a few questions I asked her earlier, she hasn’t talked to me all night. Hasn’t even tried to get to know me. Shit’s awkward. 🫠
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I went to a music festival this past weekend and met a guy on the last night. I hung out with him and his friends for a bit before he and I parted ways to hang out on our own. Long story short, we exchanged numbers, hooked up, and hung out until like 8am the next morning.
He’s from a different state so I figured nothing would come of this, but he said “you have my number. We can stay in touch,” and while ideally that’s great, I take it with a grain of salt. It’s easy to say you’ll keep in touch with someone during the high of the moment, but realistically it’s impossible unless the intention is to actually keep in touch with them.
I went to a music festival this past weekend and met a guy on the last night. I hung out with him and his friends for a bit before he and I parted ways to hang out on our own. Long story short, we exchanged numbers, hooked up, and hung out until like 8am the next morning.
He’s from a different state so I figured nothing would come of this, but he said “you have my number. We can stay in touch,” and while ideally that’s great, I take it with a grain of salt. It’s easy to say you’ll keep in touch with someone during the high of the moment, but realistically it’s impossible unless the intention is to actually keep in touch with them.
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I really enjoyed connecting with him and sharing the night with him. He seems like a great guy, he’s definitely my ideal type, and I would love to keep in touch if that’s what’s in the cards, but I don’t want to get way in over my head. I know this will eventually fizzle out. Situations like this always do…
I really enjoyed connecting with him and sharing the night with him. He seems like a great guy, he’s definitely my ideal type, and I would love to keep in touch if that’s what’s in the cards, but I don’t want to get way in over my head. I know this will eventually fizzle out. Situations like this always do…
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And given my past experiences with dating, I honestly feel scared when texting him. I don’t know if he’s actually interested in talking to me or if he feels obligated to respond. I don’t know if my texts will be the last texts before he stops talking to me. I’m finding myself reading too far into his replies, like noticing the usage or non-usage of emojis, whether the response seems genuine or forced, the length of the replies, the punctuation, etc. I know this isn’t healthy, but now I genuinely get nervous when texting someone I’m slightly interested in.
And given my past experiences with dating, I honestly feel scared when texting him. I don’t know if he’s actually interested in talking to me or if he feels obligated to respond. I don’t know if my texts will be the last texts before he stops talking to me. I’m finding myself reading too far into his replies, like noticing the usage or non-usage of emojis, whether the response seems genuine or forced, the length of the replies, the punctuation, etc. I know this isn’t healthy, but now I genuinely get nervous when texting someone I’m slightly interested in.
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I enjoyed his time so much that I’m not ready for the connection to fade just yet. ;-;
But I know I’ll have to brace myself for when it does. On the bright side, it was nice to have met him and share experiences with him in the short time we were together.
Plus, he’s in two bands and I’ve been listening to them since yesterday. Even if things fade, I could always still support his music.
I enjoyed his time so much that I’m not ready for the connection to fade just yet. ;-;
But I know I’ll have to brace myself for when it does. On the bright side, it was nice to have met him and share experiences with him in the short time we were together.
Plus, he’s in two bands and I’ve been listening to them since yesterday. Even if things fade, I could always still support his music.
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Before we parted ways, we exchanged momentos: I gave him a men’s ring that I found at my bar job, and he gave me one of his band’s stickers and also drew a smiley face on a sticky note for me. :’)
If things do fade then I’ll miss him.
Before we parted ways, we exchanged momentos: I gave him a men’s ring that I found at my bar job, and he gave me one of his band’s stickers and also drew a smiley face on a sticky note for me. :’)
If things do fade then I’ll miss him.
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He’s also the youngest guy I’ve ever been with. He’s like 6 or 7 years younger than me. 🫠 When I met him I thought he was at least 30 or 31, so when he said he’s 25 my jaw dropped. He went from being hot in my eyes to just being a cutie patootie. 😂
Normally I prefer to be with people either two years younger or older than me, but this will be the exception lol. Plus, since he’s so young I couldn’t imagine him trying to maintain a connection or a potential relationship with a 32 year old woman in another state. He’s got so much life to live and experiences to experience, whatever that means for him.
He’s also the youngest guy I’ve ever been with. He’s like 6 or 7 years younger than me. 🫠 When I met him I thought he was at least 30 or 31, so when he said he’s 25 my jaw dropped. He went from being hot in my eyes to just being a cutie patootie. 😂
Normally I prefer to be with people either two years younger or older than me, but this will be the exception lol. Plus, since he’s so young I couldn’t imagine him trying to maintain a connection or a potential relationship with a 32 year old woman in another state. He’s got so much life to live and experiences to experience, whatever that means for him.
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Since I moved back to this city in 2019, everyone I’ve been with except three people have been younger than me. 🫠 Not sure what that says about me or if I just tend to attract younger people lol.
Since I moved back to this city in 2019, everyone I’ve been with except three people have been younger than me. 🫠 Not sure what that says about me or if I just tend to attract younger people lol.
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Texting him makes me so nervous cause idk what to say!! @-@-@-@-@-@
What if he thinks I’m lame or that I’m tryin too hard? What if he loses interest and doesn’t respond? I don’t know how to keep the convo going. @-@-@-@-@-@
Texting him makes me so nervous cause idk what to say!! @-@-@-@-@-@
What if he thinks I’m lame or that I’m tryin too hard? What if he loses interest and doesn’t respond? I don’t know how to keep the convo going. @-@-@-@-@-@
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And since we live in different states and he has no obligation to continue talking to me, what if this dissipates sooner than I expect?!? @-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@
I want to talk to him a little longer. Just a little longer. But I don’t know how…. 🫠🥲
And since we live in different states and he has no obligation to continue talking to me, what if this dissipates sooner than I expect?!? @-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@-@
I want to talk to him a little longer. Just a little longer. But I don’t know how…. 🫠🥲
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Tuh.
32 years old and can’t even talk to a guy. A guy who’s way younger at that. 🫠 Woman up! 🥲😤
Tuh.
32 years old and can’t even talk to a guy. A guy who’s way younger at that. 🫠 Woman up! 🥲😤
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Honestly, maybe I should just abandon this.
Besides him asking if I caught up on rest a few days ago and him asking how my Friday was the other day, he hasn’t asked me anything else. Nothing that would indicate he’s interested, trying to get to know me, or maintain a connection. The convos have been surface level so far.
Honestly, maybe I should just abandon this.
Besides him asking if I caught up on rest a few days ago and him asking how my Friday was the other day, he hasn’t asked me anything else. Nothing that would indicate he’s interested, trying to get to know me, or maintain a connection. The convos have been surface level so far.
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Also, the convos have mostly been about him because I’m the one asking him all the questions trying to get to know him.
There’s no reciprocation. I’ve been through this long enough to know what that means.
I give this until maybe the middle or end of the week…
Also, the convos have mostly been about him because I’m the one asking him all the questions trying to get to know him.
There’s no reciprocation. I’ve been through this long enough to know what that means.
I give this until maybe the middle or end of the week…
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If this ends, I hope to meet someone similar to him who’s actually interested in asking me questions. :/
If this ends, I hope to meet someone similar to him who’s actually interested in asking me questions. :/
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He didn’t text me back today, so I guess the dissipation is happening sooner than expected.
He didn’t text me back today, so I guess the dissipation is happening sooner than expected.
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Anything that gives me anxiety isn’t worth it in the end, I guess.
It’s how it always goes.
Anything that gives me anxiety isn’t worth it in the end, I guess.
It’s how it always goes.
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Having you as a Voltie would be awesome.