Minor rant over that fact that they are changing the asphalt on my road, they are currently on a break but before that it shook the entire apartment, and it is hot right now, would love to open my window, but opening it would mean that the entire apartmnt very quickly would smell of asphalt.. No thre were no warnings to us living here about it beforehand, they started on it yesterday. So I just gotta suffer till it becomes night. Hopefully I can get some proper sleep tonight and get out of the road before they start tomorrow, but I honesly have my doubts that I will, as I am currently in the process of getting out of some medicine, that I have to take at specific hours.
At least I can pick up my bike from repair tomorrow.. which I also could yesterday but the price for it changed since I last had a bikes wheel fixed, which meant I cant afford it untill I get money tomorrow.
Oh seems their break is over.. X_X''
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On one hand its 33 degrees..NNOOOOO!!!
But on the other hand..Dnd today!! YYYYYYYYYYYYYAAAASS!!!!
Always ping me please. 
Reaaaally wishing I still had those heart meds right now, terrible side effects or not.
Ughhh....
Ughhh....
I HATE "signature required" deliveries. God forbid you should be in the bathroom or something when the mailman comes! Then, no matter how soon after the failed delivery you find their note, there's no way to get them to turn back around and give you your damn package even though you're home and they're still close by. Last time this happened, I chased the lady down on foot. This time, unfortunately, I didn't still see the truck and was sure I wouldn't make it. It was UPS, not the regular mailman, so there wouldn't have been enough stops to slow them down. So now I have to request a redelivery and wait another day because I missed them by 1 minute. The worst part is, I didn't even know my package would require signature in the first place. So when I did hear the bell, I didn't rush to get there because I thought it was a salesman. Never even heard the truck approach. Never saw it. Now I'm just angry and upset and I wanna scream. I've been waiting for this for months.
Edit: **LOUD SCREAMING** I just remembered I have an appointment tomorrow, too, so I'll probably end up missing it YET AGAIN. fml.
Edit: **LOUD SCREAMING** I just remembered I have an appointment tomorrow, too, so I'll probably end up missing it YET AGAIN. fml.
ALWAYS PING ME
just so tired. so drained. so hopeless. why am I so stressed? why do I dread going into work? i try my best and yet it seems that i'm never truly good enough. my mistakes outweigh my successes. my bad days outweigh my good days. lost my appetite, lost my will to write or draw or even game. haven't even thought of my story in weeks, it feels like. it's like i'm lost. drifting. praying to god to help me, to lead me, to take my life in his hands. it's like i can't reach him. what's holding me back? it must be myself. but try as i might... i always end up back in this hole.
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qu'est-ce que tu vas chercher?
qu'est-ce que tu vas chercher?
Once again, my mom dismissed my freelancing job as nothing, because "Oh, they appear once every millennium and take a millennium to pay you!". That so called nothing job has helped bail her out when she had trouble paying bills and I'm tired of her calling it a non-job because of that and the fact that I don't deal with customers directly. Because a REAL job has you handling customers left and right. It makes me feel like shit and that these 6 years of doing it all amount to nothing in her eyes, despite part of my degree being useful for it and being part of the reason I got the damn thing in the first place!
Lucifer's Pet
i feel like people put you down for, say, using ‘text speech’ or using terms like ‘baby’ as a way to say that something made you ‘soft’. sometimes i’ll spell things right, sometimes i won’t. it depends on how serious the topic is. i can be serious when needed. if the topic isn’t serious i’m going to say fucking yeet.
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I'm getting so tired of my life routine but I guess I gotta trust the process and be patient.
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not sure what's worse: gaining weight, or only gaining weight in the middle. It sure would be nice if I could exercise without 5,000 weird symptoms popping up. How is one supposed to stay in OK shape while having dumb health problems?
AKA Count Trashula
i'm so tired of seeing these fucking "jokes" all the time... and then everyone going "learn to take a joke, you sensitive baby"
I just fucking hate it.
stop. being. an asshole. to people. for. things. they. are. BORN WITH.
why is that so hard for people to stop doing.
I've only been able to open up about this to people I fully trust. Because anyone else is going to say I'm being too sensitive and that I don't have a sense of humor. Hey maybe your sense of humor is just shit? :/ Not everything needs to be offensive and edgy and hurtful to be cool.
I just fucking hate it.
stop. being. an asshole. to people. for. things. they. are. BORN WITH.
why is that so hard for people to stop doing.
I've only been able to open up about this to people I fully trust. Because anyone else is going to say I'm being too sensitive and that I don't have a sense of humor. Hey maybe your sense of humor is just shit? :/ Not everything needs to be offensive and edgy and hurtful to be cool.
you telling me to research what I know just because I'm so hesitant about telling you something outright feels weird.
Like, I know exactly what it is but... I absolutely struggle to say it properly? Like some kind of mental block?
It's so easy to tell people online, the anonymity helps a ton.
But here..?
I don't know.
I absolutely don't want to say it straight out because what if you tell somebody else accidentally or without thinking. I guess we'll just go around the bush again and I'll let you figure it out yourself.
I can't say it. It's like I lose my voice every time I try.
Please don't make me say it.
Other news... I hope that person is doing well... I'm dumb and I miss them coz they've been out of contact for months and I have no way to contact them...this is what online friends is like I guess...
No way to tell if they died or just needed a break or just hate my guts and never want to speak to me again.
...what if they are dead...I'll never know and it hurts so much...
Like, I know exactly what it is but... I absolutely struggle to say it properly? Like some kind of mental block?
It's so easy to tell people online, the anonymity helps a ton.
But here..?
I don't know.
I absolutely don't want to say it straight out because what if you tell somebody else accidentally or without thinking. I guess we'll just go around the bush again and I'll let you figure it out yourself.
I can't say it. It's like I lose my voice every time I try.
Please don't make me say it.
Other news... I hope that person is doing well... I'm dumb and I miss them coz they've been out of contact for months and I have no way to contact them...this is what online friends is like I guess...
No way to tell if they died or just needed a break or just hate my guts and never want to speak to me again.
...what if they are dead...I'll never know and it hurts so much...
TSUN ★ TSUN ★ TSUN (≖︿≖✿)
Whenever people hear about someone committing suicide, they go through the same motions: OH NO, I DIDN’T SEE IT COMING —> THOUGHTS AND PRAYERS TO FAMILY —> Posting a link to the suicide prevention hotline. And yet these are probably the same people to distance themselves whenever they come across with someone exhibiting signs of depression, because they’re “just not fun anymore”, or they don’t know what to do and it feels awkward. Congrats to adding fuel to your “friend’s” depression, dipshit.
Also, fuck the suicide prevention hotline number. I have heard some shitty stories about the line operator not giving a shit or sounding annoyed. Instead of outsourcing the depressed people in your lives to some stranger that may or may not give two shits, go spend some time with them. All depressed people want is for someone to listen without judgement. You don’t even have to say anything. No advice, no nodding that you agree. Just be there. Fuck, people piss me off so much. ):<
Also, fuck the suicide prevention hotline number. I have heard some shitty stories about the line operator not giving a shit or sounding annoyed. Instead of outsourcing the depressed people in your lives to some stranger that may or may not give two shits, go spend some time with them. All depressed people want is for someone to listen without judgement. You don’t even have to say anything. No advice, no nodding that you agree. Just be there. Fuck, people piss me off so much. ):<
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I mean it was okay afterwards coz im way too obvious I guess but I still dont appreciate my other friend pushing me like that.
Oh well, anyway
On another hand I just started watching Voltron with a friend and we've seen three eps so far and I might've spoiled myself a little but I dont care because I need moreee and do I be a nice friend and wait so we can watch it together again or do I watch it now to sate my hunger and then rewatch it with her because I will absolutely drink up episodes a second time
Also I will die for these characters.
They're too sweet
Oh well, anyway
On another hand I just started watching Voltron with a friend and we've seen three eps so far and I might've spoiled myself a little but I dont care because I need moreee and do I be a nice friend and wait so we can watch it together again or do I watch it now to sate my hunger and then rewatch it with her because I will absolutely drink up episodes a second time
Also I will die for these characters.
They're too sweet
There’s an ongoing issue between the employees and HR.
This guy literally refuses to bathe, citing religious reasons.
HR is currently backing him for this reason.
It is absolutely eye-watering.
Meanwhile, employees are coming up to me, asking to be moved to different machines. Which is fine, only now pretty much everyone has asked to be moved.
I have almost no one left in that area, save for him. Which is also unfair that he should be stuck running that many machines.
Meanwhile also, people are complaining that he is putting them off of their food at lunch.
It’s a really bad place to be stuck in, politically.
I’m wondering if he is just using religion to cover up a more medically concerning issue.
Either way, I don’t know what to do.
I have to be sensitive, while making sure I can still run production.
Ugh.
This guy literally refuses to bathe, citing religious reasons.
HR is currently backing him for this reason.
It is absolutely eye-watering.
Meanwhile, employees are coming up to me, asking to be moved to different machines. Which is fine, only now pretty much everyone has asked to be moved.
I have almost no one left in that area, save for him. Which is also unfair that he should be stuck running that many machines.
Meanwhile also, people are complaining that he is putting them off of their food at lunch.
It’s a really bad place to be stuck in, politically.
I’m wondering if he is just using religion to cover up a more medically concerning issue.
Either way, I don’t know what to do.
I have to be sensitive, while making sure I can still run production.
Ugh.
Oh my love, I know you are my candyman
And oh my love, let us fly to bounty land~~
Közi (“Kouji.”)
He/him
I don't know why I even come on avatar sites anymore
nobody ever talks to me
I'm like a ghost, nobody knows who I am, nobody sees me, nobody wants me around
nobody ever talks to me
I'm like a ghost, nobody knows who I am, nobody sees me, nobody wants me around
i have wanted to make a post on this forum but i feel like no one will listen or ill just get some half assed reply or something. i KNOW ill get one, in fact. no one will care, no one ever does. i want to talk about so much but i feel like people only care when im buying or selling something. otherwise its like im not there. i sound so selfish rn bc like, i get replies, but i just feel like my serious topics are never taken seriously and people will just find a way to make me feel even worse. i hate it. i hate me.
You dont get to berate and insult me and still get to see the kids. im done with your bs.
I wear many faces
Art Shop
https://www.voltra.us/forum/view_topic/7892 Art Dump
voltra.us/forum/view_topic/7849 Item Shop
voltra.us/forum/view_topic/7944
https://www.voltra.us/forum/view_topic/7892 Art Dump
voltra.us/forum/view_topic/7849 Item Shop
voltra.us/forum/view_topic/7944
TSUN ★ TSUN ★ TSUN (≖︿≖✿)
I’ve been trying to find a doctor for months now, but thanks to the way insurance companies make things infinitely difficult in this country, I’ve been out of luck.
Today, I had another doctor call me back to ask “what is the EXACT name of your coverage? Oh, we do take that insurance, but unfortunately not that plan.” Finally said f it, I’ll pay out of pocket to end this hellish chain. GOODBYE $600 AND WHATEVER CHARGES THEY DECIDE TO TAG ON AFTERWARDS.
Seriously, any presidential candidate who is still for private insurance can go suck a nut. I miss living in a country where I didn’t have the insurance company cockblock my attempts to get help because everyone over there has the same decent insurance provided by the government. What a fucking concept.
Today, I had another doctor call me back to ask “what is the EXACT name of your coverage? Oh, we do take that insurance, but unfortunately not that plan.” Finally said f it, I’ll pay out of pocket to end this hellish chain. GOODBYE $600 AND WHATEVER CHARGES THEY DECIDE TO TAG ON AFTERWARDS.
Seriously, any presidential candidate who is still for private insurance can go suck a nut. I miss living in a country where I didn’t have the insurance company cockblock my attempts to get help because everyone over there has the same decent insurance provided by the government. What a fucking concept.
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The truth behind Reaping Ritual 2019
Art by the rightful Mayor, Kiwi
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Having you as a Voltie would be awesome.