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Yeah I wouldn't kill myself either. I just see no meaning to life. I only want to have fun and that's it. I can't deal with all the stress of needing to be successful. Especially because there's nothing I really want to do with my life besides roleplay.
Same here i see no meaning to life and the good moments are just drowned out by the dull or bad. I am 27 and i have nothing i want to do with my life. I do enjoy cooking and roleplaying but i wouldn't want to do it as a job.
I would like roleplaying as a job or playing video games like those youtubers, but it's hard to get started and I don't have the motivation to keep going when no one looks at my content. I'm 26 so I'm close to being as old as you. My main problem when it comes to everything is my personality and social anxiety. I can't be that happy, friendly person everyone expects you to be. There are days when I don't want to talk to anyone in real life at all and I just want to be left alone.
People phobia and possibly social phobia so a bit more severe than anxiety over here. But i could never be a youtuber, keeping up the social part of that, talking and reacting and actually responding to viewers would be too exhausting. I have aspergers so i don't have the instincts for that.
As for roleplaying as a job, that could be interesting but usually you have to combine it with being a youtuber or actor in some manner to actually make it a job and i don't think i have the skills for that.
I don't know if i have days where i want to be left all alone but there are days filled with apathy and then there are days where i want to do nothing but empty my mind and embrace nothingness/eternity.
I see. Yes, that's true. I wouldn't be able to hold up being a youtuber either. At least not on my own. I would need to do it with a friend or a group. I can barely even talk to a camera and if I do, I look back at the video and just tell myself how horrible I look.
I always wanted to be a voice actor too for anime or cartoons but that would also be hard with not being sociable. As you put it, everything is exhausting. For people with social issues, just talking to others in person and holding a normal conversation is exhausting.
Actually, phone calls are also terrible. I have a phobia of talking on the phone.
I always wanted to be a voice actor too for anime or cartoons but that would also be hard with not being sociable. As you put it, everything is exhausting. For people with social issues, just talking to others in person and holding a normal conversation is exhausting.
Actually, phone calls are also terrible. I have a phobia of talking on the phone.
@Kiri: Phone isn't as terrible for me, you don't need to see or smell anyone else and you are just one button away from having them leave you alone. I mean if it's an official meeting or important info being exchanged over the phone it's still exhausting but more managable than meeting in person.
I can't make many voices and i can't hold a tune, so voice actor even if it sounds interesting is not a possibility for me.
So so, sick for a bit and stung by wasps today. Too bad we didn't win the contest even with so many chances between us.
@Monorea: I always think I sound ridiculous on the phone and that I will stutter. I get so nervous that I panic before making any calls and I write scripts for myself so I can read it to the other person. I'm actually better with people in person than on the phone, but not by much.
I have a great singing voice, but it doesn't really matter because my personality is so bad that I will never make it anyway. You have to at least fake being sociable and I can't even do that.
I have a great singing voice, but it doesn't really matter because my personality is so bad that I will never make it anyway. You have to at least fake being sociable and I can't even do that.
@Kiri: I don't write scripts but when i talk to people tend to think about what i am going to say otherwise a related word might replace the word i'm trying say or if i think about several things they might get mashed together when i try to say them. I am not nervous when i talk it just my brain that is being silly sometimes with words.
Have other people told you you have a great singing voice or is it your opinion? Because you can't judge your own voice.
@Monorea: Many people have said my voice is beautiful. It is I who thinks the voice in my head sounds better than the one I have heard in recordings of it XD
I have videos of me singing on youtube if you were ever interested in watching one.
I have videos of me singing on youtube if you were ever interested in watching one.
@Peachy: Yeah it felt like us two together had more than half the chances and then someone with just one won it. Disappointing but that is how chance works.
@Kiri: Nah i will trust you, do hope you get some use out of your voice tho.
@Monorea: I hope so, but I doubt it. My nerves cannot handle it all that well. I did grow up taking singing lessons and I performed in talent shows and had solos in chorus, but every time before I would go on, I would be freaking out that I would forget the lyrics or my voice would crack. There were times that my voice did crack because it was shaking due to me being nervous and I believe that is why I didn't win in the end. That is why I would like to be a voice actor/singer and not an on stage singer with a record deal. I cannot handle all the people staring at me.
This is my topic in the Exchange. Please go buy my items. I have old crate items and orb items for sale.
https://www.voltra.us/forum/view_topic/7218/#666694
https://www.voltra.us/forum/view_topic/7218/#666694
@Kiri: You did talk about youtube and there are many musical content creators so maybe that would be a path?
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Having you as a Voltie would be awesome.