Amity's posts

I stay cool, and dig all jive,
That's the way I stay alive.
My motto,
as I live and learn,
is
Dig and be dug
In return

I didn’t think I’d have so much to say. I guess that’s good.

Okay. Good night everyone.

Tired of being tired. Fuck.

I hate bed time so much. I wish I had more of a routine.

It’ll be good to get trucking and that life style will kinda force a routine. And that’ll be nice. I hope it’s nice.

Fuck I’m sad. Tired of being sad.

Well I guess it’s time for bed.

I feel so sad. I did my shot late this week. I want to change to the pellets wheee you only do it every six months or so but who knows If this god forsaken podunk town can even do that. Or if they’ll try to “refer” me to someone out of area.

Not that I have insurance. I think my work has to offer it to me next month. Get me and my wife on that so she can get her guts looked at finally. God. God! Ahhhhhhhhhh

Took a long ass nap each day this weekend. Felt amazing afterwards. Hopefully it’s just getting over that damn flu or whatever and not that I need that much sleep. I don’t have time for it.

I know I need more sleep and rest than I’m getting daily but life doesn’t care that I’m disabled.

Sometimes I wonder if something Real Bad happened and I ended up in the hospital if any family besides my wife would even show up.

Moving back in as an adult has been eye opening in the worst way. I’ve learned and grown so much in the last 2 months here.

God I hope I get a scholarship. I don’t know what we’ll do or how long we’ll have to stay here in semi homeless limbo if we have to save it all up ourselves.

The hotel alone would be like 3 grand for a month or something.

Oh I’m tired

I guess I should get ready for bed

Doing yoga really helped with my pain. I don’t know that I can call it yoga, but stretching any way. God that feels good. I don’t think my muscles have the ability to relax on their own. I wonder if that’s the autism or something else wonderful. The brain damage or the ptsd

Why can’t I sue my mother for setting me up to be a horrible adult

My wife just found one of the dogs nails in the bed lmaoooo

Nasty ass creature

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My sense of identity and the queer bashing is so bad here that I feel so self conscious of my avatar here even on the forums

Who gives a fuck if people think my gay avatar is gay on a site like this?

It’s just become so hard

I’m wearing makeup again and my wife says it’s pretty and that made me happy. That she noticed and encouraged it today meant a lot.

She’s so good and so important wow I love her !!!!!!!

Things are just really fucking hard right now

They’re getting better I guess but Christ it’s slow going

I guess feel free to message me or post in here if you’d like, about something I’ve posted.

Conversation isn’t really the reason for this thread though so I may ignore you if I’m not feeling it.

It’s not personal. The undercurrent is where I come to hide.

please don’t post here

if you want to talk to me about something here please message me, comment on my profile, etc.

Ohhhhhh you know. One of those threads.

For whatever reason I’m having a really time writing in my paper and pen journal, but writing my thoughts is a really important part of self regulation for me. So I’m hoping I can kinda micro journal here the way I’ve seen some others do.