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Babymetal Megitsuna

@milkshake:
Self doubt and anxiety are definitely a big factor in all this too, so I completely understand feeling like "too much".
There have been times where I wonder if I should give my friends a break from me for a while. I feel like I'm the kind of person who's very draining to be around.

On the other hand, I do similar stuff with friends where I just occasionally huck memes at them in a dm or a cool song I like.
It's the most I can muster when I'm always feeling like a Bou of few words. //shrug

I hope you're able to be where you want to be with your friends in terms of interaction. I'm not sure what needs to be done in this case or what helps with this situation.

@MoodyB:
I'm sure it's also because this year has been tough on people financially among other things.
I do hope next year goes better if you don't get much this year tho!

it really is.

It's pretty common for people to think that way about themselves. On the plus side, it's probably also a good thing so long as you're not totally consumed by it. Good motivation to keep pushing for improvement! But it's also very important to acknowledge the accomplishments one has already made thus far.

I quite like your art! Your lines are very flowy and elegant and I like your colours. <:
I have followed you on instagram also xD

@MoodyB:
Oh no. Yeah, I understand. Losing something of sentimental value sucks.

Oh, that's cool! I hope you do get a purchase tho, that would be nice.
Art is fun to do. I just finished up a piece today that I didn't think I'd finish, so that was nice lol.
Of course I don't really do anything cool like you have going with my art since it really saps the little energy I have to do a full thing lol.

'orz

once in a while I do commissions for friends and that's about all I can muster.

Nice! What did you watch?

@MoodyB:
Ah, that sucks. I'm sorry to hear about the art and the wine glass. I can understand falling behind on art, tho in my case it's because I cannot organize myself to save my life.
Hope the glass wasn't expensive either. >>;;

Little enjoyments are nice! I may have indulged a little too much on "little enjoyments" today.
Ha ha, my mother dropped by today with goods to deliver, some of which were two mini pies and some two bite cinnamon buns.

Hey, happy birthday! I'm glad your birthday is going well regardless.

I had a bit of a scare during mine and was preparing for the worst, but thankfully it all turned out alright!

Despite current events, have you done any little you activities to celebrate the day? C:

Does it feel empty at lot for anybody?
I get that that's what it can be like when one is an introvert, and I feel like I could go on forever about that particular topic.

Anyway, I spend a lot of time with friends technically, but I don't really converse with anybody? If that makes sense. I'm there almost every time there's a group call and in a lot of respects, I'm always the loudest person there. But it's a lot of nothing and I only ever contribute if everybody is cracking jokes and talking nonsense, but I rarely participate in the much more serious parts of the conversations.
Half of it is because I feel I have nothing to lend to the conversation since somebody always says it better than I ever could. The other part is that it's in those moments- or moments when it's just me and one other friend, that I realize how tired I feel emotionally??? Or, something to that effect I'm not really sure what it is. Because the idea of holding a real conversation feels so utterly exhausting that I can hardly bring myself to do it a lot of the times.

Does this make sense? Does anyone else ever feel this way?

It's kind of shitty because I feel like I'm not as personable as I could be. I've never been good at communication to be fair, and it's only recently that I've ever really had a friend group that I cared so much about. Before it's only ever been a couple people. It just sucks that I feel like I'm my own barrier. There are a lot of times where I feel like I want to sit down and just have one on one time with certain friends but I'm tired before I can even begin. There's a lot I'd like to say to people.

I feel like I used to be much more involved.

i have not shared art here in a hot minute
i dont have a brain or a memory

i make a spooder wamans

@Valefor:
Thank you! Also sorry i had to start over the trade. Accidentally accepted the first one without giving volts.

@MoodyB:
Yeah, i hope you get your food stamps.
that does sound really hard.

@DiabolicalDame:
I feel you on the energy thing. I wish you luck on the knitting! That's something I could never get into, lol.

That sounds like fun also! I keep saving art related memes and stuff to do for fun that I never get around to and I end up losing them before I remember to do them. I need to do more art related stuff too.

@ChiffonOrange:

Yeah, I also still have a soft spot for Sonic these days lmao. So much so that I also watched the Sonic Boom series when it came out, it was actually pretty enjoyable lmao. Too bad the game wasn't the same way, ha.

I didn't like the Winx club, the show's whole art style and aesthetic put me off although I did used to think the witches looked cool. Everytime Winx club came on though I instantly changed the channel or did something else lmao.

@Valefor:
hello, i'd love to buy a krampus please and thank you!

@MoodyB:
Oh no, I'm sorry to hear about the food stamps. I hope you guys will be okay for food in general, I'm in a bad way financially and with food myself so I understand how stressful that part can be. I'm also sorry about the metabolism issues.

An air fryer sounds like it'd be very convenient to own! I myself would really like a slow cooker, since I usually can't bring myself to make things very often and throwing stuff in a pot and letting it go while I just kind of putter around all day would be nice. one can only live off of pasta and sandwiches for so long.


@ChiffonOrange:
Oh yeah, they become terrifyingly obvious when you watch them these days lmao.
As a kid though, I was drawn in by the gadgets also and the action scenes. Little kid me thought it was super cool, and I remember thinking back then that it reminded me of Sonic Underground, which I missed then because I think it stopped airing after a little bit. I used obsessed with Sonic as a wee tot, ha.

@koneko:
Hey, nice! I applaud you for it because I learned very quickly that I am less nurturing than a desert.
I wasn't very good at keeping my plants healthy so I don't think I'll be attempting that ever again.

@Totalanimefan:
lol me too, thank you

@MoodyB:
aw, how come? i dont do it often, but i actually enjoy cooking. its the dishes that keep me from doing it regularly.
i hate dishes.

@ChiffonOrange:
yeah, exactly.

aww, i loved lilo & stitch and totally spies as a kid, but looking back at totally spies today makes you realize how strange and sus it was LOL

@Priestess of Pie:
yeah, i have to be in a certain mood and headspace to sit thru them, so i just stockpile relevant tutorial vids in a playlist for another day usually lol

@Count Trashula:
im very sorry to hear you've had a difficult time with it. im fortunate that i live on my own and that a majority of my interests are in fact pc based so i dont have to worry about the money part of hobbies. i never even considered that.

i really hope that you're able to do something for yourself despite your situation.

@Vixen:
o, thats cool! do you post your art anywhere?
yeah, thats fair lol. i used to like baking but gave up because of the pile of dishes it tended to make. plus, ingredients 'spensive.