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Somehow I haven't seen this yet in this forum? Or, if it exists it's been locked? Tell me, friends, what are your top ten favorite songs? Maybe your favorite lyrics as well?













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I would love to see a plague doctor mask (if that hasn't already been suggested).

This morning during breakfast I tried to tell my mom that I was really not enjoying college and that I wanted to take two of my three classes online. She blew up at me saying I'm a failure, that everyone has to do things they don't want to do, that if I don't go to college I'll never get a job and I'll be homeless, stuff like that. She was yelling and I started crying, enough that I was hyperventilating and shaking. I stayed home. I emailed my professor, the professor of the one class I enjoy, and haven't heard back from him. I'm scared that I'm going to come to that class next week only to be told I've been kicked out and replaced because I didn't show up on the second day. I'm already feeling suicidal as fuck about all this, if that happens on top of everything then I don't know what I'll do. My mom came back later to tell me that she was sorry and that she loved me and that I could take online classes if I wanted to but it's kind of too little too late. The damage is done, I'm feeling worse than I was before and I want to hurt myself. I don't even know if I'll sleep tonight.

You might try going to a friend or family member's house. Or a closet if you're really, really desperate. I'm assuming you have a laptop or mobile device if wifi is a requirement. If you're really, really, really desperate you could use a good old-fashioned pen and paper. Maybe take some earbuds for music to drown out the noise.

My grandma has allegedly met and dated Elvis but my grandma tells tall tales a lot, so that could very well be untrue. I personally have not met any celebrities to my knowledge and I'm not sure I want to. I'd be sad if my favorite celeb turned out to be mean or something, so I'm content the way I am.

I really do not want children. Children are so much work. I do not have the energy or patience to raise kids. Kids are small people with less experience, big portions of their adult life depend on their caregivers' actions, and I don't think I will ever be ready for that responsibility. I don't hate kids even if I sometimes say I do. I just hate that I'm expected to adore them without any complaints, or that if I have qualms with kids I'm expected to "love and want them deep down anyway". My dentist once told me that I'd "change my mind" about kids and it took all my willpower not to bite her hand then and there. If I was ever going to have a kid, I would adopt them and I'd go for an older one. I'm talking teen or preteen. Even that sounds like too much for me, though. TL;DR, I don't hate kids I just don't like or want them. I want kids to have happy and healthy childhoods (as far away from me as possible).

I'm really not enjoying college so far. I'm basically only going because I have no other choice. I don't have any skills that would really help me in the career force, so as much as I would love to finally be done with school, I have to go. I feel like a useless manbaby because I can't hardly take care of myself or do any sort of real work, the only things I'm sort of good at are drawing and voice acting. I can't miss my first week of class but I already want to skip a day because I'm so overwhelmed. I told my parents I wasn't ready and they basically told me to suck it up and go or get a job (and I've never had a job before so that's not likely to happen easily). I'm just so sick of school, I spent my entire life in school and somehow I'm weird for not wanting to waste another 8 years or so of my life chained to a desk. And then this all is happening immediately after my parents tell me they're getting divorced, my cat runs away, having to move away from my childhood home, and my boyfriend and I break up. I'm basically ready to go back to bed and never leave. Nothing would make me happier right now than to just sleep for a whole month.

I don't really regularly watch anime the way I used to 4 years ago, but I had some fun watching Asobi Asobase recently. I started Gugure! Kokkuri-san and have yet to finish it. Once upon a time I had a whole list of things I wanted to start watching but since I'm moving and all my stuff is either packed away or in a different spot, I'm not sure where that list is right now.

I recently reset/sold my town and started over. The only reason was because my old town had been kind of abandoned and I was pretty sure the town would be devoured by weeds and crawling with roaches if I returned, so I sold my town and got approximately 4,000,000 bells for it. I kept my catalog so I could furnish my house and buy my old laptop. Animal Crossing has always been an exercise in patience, but wow does it suck to have to wait to get all my stuff back. I suppose this is what I asked for when I reset, though.

I've downloaded it like three times but I'm nowhere near completion. :viocry: I swear I never have space on any of my devices for all of the games I want to play. From what I saw, though, I like Yoosung and Jumin the most. Also I kind of wish it was an option to play as a guy. :viosad:

I recently discovered Hippea Chickpea Puffs and they're sooooooo good. :vioyum: I like the vegan cheese flavors. I also really like botan rice candy because they come with stickers, but sometimes the stickers are weird. Ginger chews are good and kinda spicy, chai lattes are suuuuuper nice on cold days, and my most favorite food of all time are peanut butter and honey sandwiches. I never get the honey that's in the bear bottle, that bear is a liar with added sugars. I get organic clover honey and creamy no-stir peanut butter, put them on some toasted Dave's Killer Bread (Dave's Killer Toast?) and then eat it in what is most likely 45 seconds flat. I always have it with a mug of earl grey tea as well.

I draw or take a bath, something I have almost complete control over. If I can't do either of those things... Idk, cry? I also tend to carry around fidget toys and small stuffed animals so I have something to do with my hands if I get anxious in public.

There was a mouse in my room once. It was too chubby to fit underneath my door but it kept trying to squeeze itself through and that's how I heard it. It would keep running behind my dresser when I tried to stand up and catch it, so I tossed the granola bar I was eating on the floor to entice it into staying put. It sort of worked but I still wasn't able to trap it, the little bugger was too fast for me. I decided to ignore it but then it started climbing the string to my blinds and up to the window so I opened the window to let it out but that scared it and it jumped a foot away off the string back behind my dresser. It was so close to freedom. Eventually I just opened my bedroom door and let it run around so my cats could get it. There was another one recently that got into the trashcan but my mom took care of that one since I wasn't home.

I'll most likely be getting a new cat soon too, but sadly it'll have to be after I've moved houses. I don't wanna wait though.