Gayspacetrash's posts

For those who don't know, I am a female biologically, and present myself as such. However, when I was a little girl, I literally wanted to be a boy. I wore "boy clothes", from the boy section. I hated long hair, I hated admitting I played with dolls, I changed my interests in TV shows and toys to be more "boy like", and I even refused to be called by my real name at school. I hated being a girl so much and I just wanted to be a boy. It was so bad that in middle school I even asked people to call me Kyle. not even close to my real name.

As I got older, I slowly got less and less afraid of being my girly self. I love the color pink and I love "stereotypical girly things". I keep my hair long, I like my name, I like my body (most of the time.), and I wear both male and female clothes (as most humans do. Why are clothes even gendered? Why is anything gendered?) /eye roll

I have no clue what changed, and I also have no idea why I wanted to be a male so badly. I don't believe I'm transgender, since I am comfortable with my gender that I was born with now, but I do sometimes wish to be genderless or even sometimes still wish I could be a boy. I do like my breasts and hips, but not my genitals really. It's an odd love/hate relationship. @___@ I mean, is this normal? I've never really spoken about it before, but I thought this would be a safe place to do so, as well as get some opinions.

Please excuse me if I've used a term wrong here, and be aware I'm not trying to offend anyone. If you correct me kindly, I'll not only appreciate it, but I'll be happy to change anything I said wrong.