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I am fricking sick right now and it sucks. Yesterday and all night last night I was either throwing up or had the diaherra. Still going on today, with a few added bonuses... 101 fever and bodyaches everywhere, a bit dizzy and not being able to hold anything down... mind you I'm not even hungry but it's good to at least try(at least according to my Grandma when I was growing up), and all I ate was half a piece of dry toast! One minute I am freezing and then the next I am hot as heck. I also hate the way I feel... I have a high tolerance for pain, etc... but I feel like this and I turn into a whiney little... yeah. Now I am sitting out in the computer room cuz I was getting tired of laying down but I'm thinking of going back into the bedroom and snuggling with my dogs and binge watching something on Netflix or Prime. Not sleeping though... cuz either I am watching too much News or being sick gives you strange /scary dreams, or both.
I dreamt last night when I managed to get some sleep that Trump at his State of The Union called for a National Emercency to build his wall, only he took it a lot further and started implementing martial law, said he was the ultimate and rightful leader and was working with Putin to implement new strategic alliances. There was a video of Trump and Putin together in the White House holding hands, their hands up in the air and Trump declaring we are now The United Union of America. Worst of all is that Trump started a new holocaust... he called upon his followers to kill/round up anyone who was brown/black/asaian, not caring if they were citizens/immigrants/undocumented. He said anyone harboring or didn't go a long with his plans would be killed on sight. Scary thing is in this dream is that his followers were so many and so racist that they did it all. Friends I knew for years turned on me and stormed my house because my roommate/friend is a pacific islander. I woke up from my dream shaking and so fricking scared it wasn't even funny. So yeah... strange/scary dream that I hope never ever comes true.

I hate panic attacks. Sometimes mine get so bad that I end up puking. Or blackout and don't realize what I am doing. The after effects suck as well, headaches, tired and overall lack of energy.

I really hope you feel better! Hopefully you didn't crack your head too hard... I suggest snuggling down with your favorite drink, movies and just take it easy if you can.

I love pizza! Sometimes I think I can live off of it, lol. Basics on a pizza for me are cheese, sausage, black olives, onions, green peppers, and bacon. Otherwise depending on where we go, it's a local place it's Taco Pizza, BLT Pizza, or a Meat Lovers Pizza. If it's Toppers the go to pizza is the Totzilla(Think Tator Tot casserole on a pizza), Hawaiian Style, Buffalo Chicken, Mac and Cheese(mainly our sons pizza of choice), or the Nacho one. There are a lot more I can think of... but I am now making myself hungry for pizza, and it's only 9am, plus no more eating out is in the budget for this month unless someone treats us or gives us money, lol.

@Tuijp: Yup. I love my new computer. My sig other spoiled me for my Birthday and got me an MSI Gaming computer, sure were paying on it, but it has proven itself. It so far has handled everything I've thrown at it, plus more.
My old computer was starting to die... I think I killed the onboard video card cuz all you get is green lines when you plug into it. Luckily I had a compatible video card which is prolonging it's life... plus the Bluetooth and the wireless don't work anymore. So I mainly use it as a kinda LAN server for music, movies/TV Shows that didn't have the streaming code with them I backed up and use Plex to watch them if you don't want to root around or keep switching DVD's.
Plus my sig other uses that one for when he feels like going on the internet or to listen to music, and when our son gets done from being grounded he goes on and plays Roblox and other games.

@Tuijp: Congrats on the computer! I know people who swear by their tablets and phones, but I prefer to do things on a computer desktop rather than tablet. Heck, I even have an android emulator on my old computer so I can play some mobile games that are android only or I steal my sons Chromebook.

I'd say more beautiful than cute! Allthough the pumpkin? ontop of the head is cute! Very nicely done.

@vengeance: Love your new sign! 80's was a good time... specially for cartoons and movies. :)

@Ghostie: I hope you feel better soon! My dog is on Amocicillin right now twice a day and I have to wash my hands each time after giving him it because I'm allergic to it... I guess I can touch the pill, but I wash my hands just in case I put my hand to my mouth or something cuz I don't want to swell up with hives and have trouble breathing.

Awesome! Thanks for letting us know as well! :)

@Millet: That art is awesome! I like how the colors pop out at you and the details in the background are great! Great job.

When I was in High School I was highly depressed, agoraphobic, social anxiety and had massive panic attacks. I've learned coping mechanisms over the years so I am fairly better than I was... but it was hell for my Dad to get me out of bed and moving. I was downright disrespectfuil to him sometimes, and I am so glad he understood my situation.(He has mental illness himself so he knew what was going on... plus he reconized a lot of stuff I was going through that my Mom went through from when they were married and when she was alive.) Anyway, he did eventually give up and stopped calling in for me at school and that's when the cops started showing up at our door to take me to school. I had such a bad panic attack when the officer just put his hand on me that the officer backed off and recommended to my Dad some homeschooling and he even gave my Dad a lot of information to get everything started. Which is odd considering back then they didn't know what to do with kids in my situation... it's just been recently.
But I still love my bed and blankets too much. My son is even worse than I am with blankets... he always has to be wrapped up or have one near. It can be 100 degrees in the house and he's sitting there on the computer or couch watching tv and wrapped up in a blanket or comferter.

@star2000shadow: I hope you feel better Star!
@littlewhitedragonlet: That's a good thing the dogs aren't fighting. We have our Sig Other's StepMoms dog for the day to see how ours will interact with him because she is moving to assisted living and can't take the dog and so far it's going well. He's attached himself to our roommate/friend who is crashing with us.

Heya guys!

How was everyone's holiday? Mine was good. Best part was spending time with those we love.

I hope everyone has a safe Holidays!