Miss Kitty's posts

I deal with anxiety every single day. I absolutely hate it. I can't call people on my own. If someone comes to the house without any kind of warning, I panic. When I drive...oh boy when I drive. I know the rules of the road. I know what to do, when I should turn, but once I'm on the road, I blank. I forget everything. It'll be a turn on red and I have to question whoever I am with if I can turn there or not. I feel like a child who can't do anything on their own. I always question and self doubt myself when working on something rather its for myself, more so when its for someone else. Large crowds freak me out. I can't look people in the eye when they are talking to me. I'm a total mess. I do have Xanax to take, but if I take two or more (they are the lowest dosage) I start to feel a little tired. I don't like taking pills to begin with so I try my hardest not to take them.

As far as coping with it goes, music helps. Happy go lucky music. I really like ASMR. Now, there are really wierd ones out there lol. Personally, I like the brush sound ones. Like hair brushing or face brushing. I can just close my eyes and listen to those and relax. I do have a few plushies that I can hold to make me feel a little better. Coloring in coloring books help too, as its forcing me to focus on something else.

As far as depression goes, it seems this year I've really been experiencing it pretty badly. Lately, I just can't find the motivation to do much. I just wanna stay in my blanket. I've been slacking on a lot, and it makes me feel like crap, because I do wanna do it, but I don't. Even stuff I really love to do, like draw and write. I feel like I have to force myself to do it now. I used to do this stuff every day, enjoy it. Now, I find it hard just to pick up the pen. I hate these feelings. I really do.

Thank you for the warm welcome ^^ I shall stay here so it isn't so lonely!

@Panda: Same here. And that more shops open for more variety. Although, I'm sure that'll happen once trading is actually open.

Ahhh...Then yeah, that makes sense lol. Sucks though :( Keeping tabs up help so much

Mmm...Banana bread is super yummy ;_; I want some now

Oh yay! Love hugs! *hugs* ^^ I'm happy now!

Hi Rimi!! *waves frantically*

If its your computer (Assuming?) why would your husband complain lol

Its a neat trick of the eye, thats for sure. I like how the bra sits on the avatar. Strapless!

May have to try that out then sometime ^^ Im in need to bake something, may as well try something new.

Yes, it really is. Earlier it was kind of slow. I figured since I posted, I had jinxed it xD

Anything is possible!

Same. Its the little things that make the site that much better.

See ^^ So this will never die!