um excuse me this is not the Presidential 420 Blaze It form
those are blue
lies and slander. this is a setup. ABORT ABORT ABORT
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um excuse me this is not the Presidential 420 Blaze It form
those are blue
lies and slander. this is a setup. ABORT ABORT ABORT
what?? o.o
Have...have you been doing it on purpose this whole time?? Or have I misunderstood? I may be at a loss for words.
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pls don't
not so secretly waiting on okios' fanfic to answer all my burning questions...
I've forvigen my mom for the hell I had to endure as a child all because she stayed with a, manipulative , abusive piece of crap. I'll never forgive her for marrying another one and allowing my sister's to go through more of the same.
Do you ever just love a celeb so much and want to draw like a thousand pictures of them??? omg
"I guess you could say that the one thing in common with all my films is that a child dies" hoooooooly crap he's so awkward it's fucking adorable.
I hope he succeeds in all his endeavors!!!
mostly because I want more photos of him ahem ahem paparazziwhereareyou
"I guess you could say that the one thing in common with all my films is that a child dies" hoooooooly crap he's so awkward it's fucking adorable.
I hope he succeeds in all his endeavors!!!
mostly because I want more photos of him ahem ahem paparazziwhereareyou
I need to quit smoking ffs. Tired of stinking and being ashamed and coughing up chunky phlegm, of being winded all the time. Tired of being controlled by a fucking chemical that has more sway over me than anything else. Tired of wasting the money and the time and I don't want to end up with a fucking robot voice box.
But part of me also feels like it's already too late. It's already been almost 6 years, 5 years of a heavy habit.
I just don't see myself growing old. But I don't want to go all sick and decrepit, breathing through a machine, looking like Mr House from Fallout NV. No thank you.
But then I just can't stop. I'm more ashamed to buy nicotine gum than I am to buy goddamn cigarettes. Like I'm too ashamed to admit it was all a stupid mistake.
God help me...
I need to cut back on the ganja too. My life is literally leaking by and I don't want to suddenly wake up one day at 35.
I had a dream about us together last night and it was magical. The kissing, there was a fire inside both of us, it's weird how I don't feel this way for months or even years then suddenly everything I feel for you comes rushing back. And I wonder what it would be like to be together.
At least you're a super cool, reliable friend that I can turn to when things go wrong and you can always do the same for me.
call me grem
they/them
they/them
I'm sorry it always ends up like this. How I never do what I'm supposed to do until it's too late and then end up talking about it nervously as if I need to involve you guys in shit I brought upon myself.
Sorry. You guys probably see me as a child who can't do shit for themselves, which would be true because, oh man, why do I keep fucking doing this to myself?
I keep telling myself...next time...next time.... But there never is a fucking next time.
Hah. Don't know how things will turn out at this rate. Will probably fail.
Sorry
Sorry. You guys probably see me as a child who can't do shit for themselves, which would be true because, oh man, why do I keep fucking doing this to myself?
I keep telling myself...next time...next time.... But there never is a fucking next time.
Hah. Don't know how things will turn out at this rate. Will probably fail.
Sorry
I knew it. Then felt bad for assuming and tried to think better if it. Only for it to turn around and bite me in the ass. Because when my gut says I'm right, I, unfortunately, usually am. Sad but true. Lol....
*sigh* I don't know what to do anymore...would it honestly even matter if my HD failed at this point.
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I just don't think I'm cut out for relationships. The things that I want, I'm not sure I'd be able to reciprocate, anymore. I think I'm partially taking this new position and trying to move in with my best friend because I think they will ultimately lead to my boyfriend and I breaking up. I wish I were strong enough to do it on my own. But I love him and it was so difficult to sit there and watch him hurt while I explained all the reasons I thought we weren't working. So I let him try again. And he did, at first. But he stopped after not even a month. And now I feel like I'm just asking too much and there's no sense in it. He's never going to feel for me the way I feel for him and that's just all there is to it. It doesn't matter how long we're together. Someday he'll meet some one that he will actually love. But that person is never going to be me...
INB4 I find it strangely relaxing to read confessions
Perhaps it reminds me that me own problems aren't so bad
[ often multitasking unsuccessfully ] | [ I may take a while to respond, but haven't forgotten you! ♥ ]
qu'est-ce que tu vas chercher?
qu'est-ce que tu vas chercher?
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Having you as a Voltie would be awesome.