I just don't think I'm cut out for relationships. The things that I want, I'm not sure I'd be able to reciprocate, anymore. I think I'm partially taking this new position and trying to move in with my best friend because I think they will ultimately lead to my boyfriend and I breaking up. I wish I were strong enough to do it on my own. But I love him and it was so difficult to sit there and watch him hurt while I explained all the reasons I thought we weren't working. So I let him try again. And he did, at first. But he stopped after not even a month. And now I feel like I'm just asking too much and there's no sense in it. He's never going to feel for me the way I feel for him and that's just all there is to it. It doesn't matter how long we're together. Someday he'll meet some one that he will actually love. But that person is never going to be me...
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INB4 I find it strangely relaxing to read confessions
Perhaps it reminds me that me own problems aren't so bad
I hate storms. I know this isn't like a life traumatic thing but a confession is a confession I suppose. I hate them so much. Just rain, I'm fine with. Add thunder and lightning into the mix and leave me out of it. I just wanna crawl into a corner and shut it all out. I can't do that because 1. My kid gonna look at me like wtf mom. 2. Spiders tend to like corners so...no. So I've headphones on and just waiting for it to go away. The new black out curtains are helping at least.
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qu'est-ce que tu vas chercher?
qu'est-ce que tu vas chercher?
I really want my money back but I'm not much of a confrontational person.
Thanks Lunakiri 
In character unless ~
Everyone gets mad when I apologize for my personality, laugh, being weird, or anything really....
What no one understands it that my mother hated me so much as a child that I wasn't allowed to laugh (because it is annoying to her), I wasn't allowed to be who I was because "What would other people think" and even had "approved by mother friends" who would tell me my smile was ugly and more... I've been trying hard to break all those thoughts... but it's hard.... and I just don't like anything about me now. :vanora_sweat:
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Please @ me.
Please @ me.
My life is actually turning around for the better in alot of ways, I feel more rcognized as a person and gaining a bit more of a social thing offline. Hubs is paying more attention to how he is too, and its really swinging for the better.
I love reading okios' rants.
I can’t begin to describe how hurt I am
You know how important things are to me,
Yet right before they happen, you have no money, time. Ect. You then attempt to make me feel bad about your situation when you’re the one who let me down. It’s getting old.
You know how important things are to me,
Yet right before they happen, you have no money, time. Ect. You then attempt to make me feel bad about your situation when you’re the one who let me down. It’s getting old.
Foever in my heart
Spookums 11/25/18
Angus 6/23/19
Mom 6/29/19
Dad 11/29/2021
Spookums 11/25/18
Angus 6/23/19
Mom 6/29/19
Dad 11/29/2021
Having dreams about talking to the friend that abandoned me... ugh. stupid asshole.
It doesnt even hurt anymore.
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Guess these couple of days are gonna be a bit odd.
Feeling kinda blank I guess
With the odd couple of emotions scattered here and there
But mostly blankness
Aside from blankness I guess the most prominent emotion would be irritation, and I don't really know why.
I guess it's hidden between this big thick bullet-proof glass though where I can see it but it's just like.....meh
Feeling kinda blank I guess
With the odd couple of emotions scattered here and there
But mostly blankness
Aside from blankness I guess the most prominent emotion would be irritation, and I don't really know why.
I guess it's hidden between this big thick bullet-proof glass though where I can see it but it's just like.....meh
"I'm the loser of the game you didn't know you were playing."
Ping me for a response.
"Someday, somewhere, somehow..."
Ping me for a response.
"Someday, somewhere, somehow..."
*has a low blood sugar/need to eat something issue/feel cold* Eh nty not hungry.
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Having you as a Voltie would be awesome.