Aisukohi's posts
Posted in Well that's done
Posted 3 years ago
@Totalanimefan: Thank you for that read. <3 I think I'm pretty good with steps 2 and 3, but 1 and 4 are things I could work on. I'm not as social as I'd like to be IRL, but maybe this year I can get out more and build more relationships.
Posted in Well that's done
Posted 3 years ago
My mind is a mess of thoughts with what's been going on with my life recently, so I'll just cut to the chase and go into detail with future posts as needed.
Basically, on New Year's Eve, I made the decision to sever the last point of contact I had with my paternal grandmother (and by extension, paternal grandfather). Long story short, over the last several years, our relationship has become progressively more strained as she is just a toxic person who can't acknowledge that she lacks morals and empathy for her own family, namely, my dad. 2 years ago shortly before Thanksgiving, my dad and my family had made the decision that we wouldn't visit my grandparents anymore. That didn't mean we weren't open to seeing them in a mutual location, but we would not go to their home anymore. Seeing as my grandparents have always been a large part of my life, and wanting to be a good person, I kept my grandmother as a friend on my Facebook so that she could continue to receive updates with my life if she so chose. Ever since this rift, she's hardly reacted to my content, which is fine and dandy, but when she does react, she always manages to leave a snarky comment that circles back to this whole situation--something that the rest of the world doesn't need to know, and is frankly inappropriate when it doesn't relate at all to what I posted to begin with. So New Year's Eve she did it again, blaming my "behavior" on my dad because "he always controlled me and always will" and I just lost it. I first hid her comment and contemplated messaging her to chew her out about all the years of abuse we've endured from her, but thought the better of it and just blocked her entirely.
I should feel happy, right? But I'm back and forth with emotions and I'm not sure how to cope. I'm very aware that it's normal to grieve over severed relationships no matter how necessary that severance was. I just wondered if someone had advice or can relate or whatever.
I apologize if something didn't make sense here as I'm pretty fried from IRL happenings not related to this situation. But I needed to put this somewhere because I don't like this unhealthy feeling. If anyone needs clarification or more details, I'm happy to divulge to an extent.
Thanks in advance for reading. <3 My responses may be slow, but I'll pop back here to check when I have a free moment.
TL;DR: I severed my last point of contact with my grandmother who's been a big part of my life up until recently and need ways to cope.
Basically, on New Year's Eve, I made the decision to sever the last point of contact I had with my paternal grandmother (and by extension, paternal grandfather). Long story short, over the last several years, our relationship has become progressively more strained as she is just a toxic person who can't acknowledge that she lacks morals and empathy for her own family, namely, my dad. 2 years ago shortly before Thanksgiving, my dad and my family had made the decision that we wouldn't visit my grandparents anymore. That didn't mean we weren't open to seeing them in a mutual location, but we would not go to their home anymore. Seeing as my grandparents have always been a large part of my life, and wanting to be a good person, I kept my grandmother as a friend on my Facebook so that she could continue to receive updates with my life if she so chose. Ever since this rift, she's hardly reacted to my content, which is fine and dandy, but when she does react, she always manages to leave a snarky comment that circles back to this whole situation--something that the rest of the world doesn't need to know, and is frankly inappropriate when it doesn't relate at all to what I posted to begin with. So New Year's Eve she did it again, blaming my "behavior" on my dad because "he always controlled me and always will" and I just lost it. I first hid her comment and contemplated messaging her to chew her out about all the years of abuse we've endured from her, but thought the better of it and just blocked her entirely.
I should feel happy, right? But I'm back and forth with emotions and I'm not sure how to cope. I'm very aware that it's normal to grieve over severed relationships no matter how necessary that severance was. I just wondered if someone had advice or can relate or whatever.
I apologize if something didn't make sense here as I'm pretty fried from IRL happenings not related to this situation. But I needed to put this somewhere because I don't like this unhealthy feeling. If anyone needs clarification or more details, I'm happy to divulge to an extent.
Thanks in advance for reading. <3 My responses may be slow, but I'll pop back here to check when I have a free moment.
TL;DR: I severed my last point of contact with my grandmother who's been a big part of my life up until recently and need ways to cope.
Posted in honeyglazed ★
Posted 3 years ago
I can find some mochi here in some of the Asian stores, not fresh, but boxed. My problem is, I'm too picky with most of the flavors they have, so I don't buy it often lol. I love the sesame kind and am looking for a good matcha kind.
Posted in Selling Stuff~
Posted 3 years ago
@Starlight: I'd like to buy your Miss Mary Annette and Perennial Premier for volts if they're still available? 7k total?
Posted in honeyglazed ★
Posted 3 years ago
Oh that's right, you did mention mochi and noodles lol.
Belated merry Christmas everyone!! Hope everyone had a great one!!
Belated merry Christmas everyone!! Hope everyone had a great one!!
Posted in ┤▒├ Wildfire's World ┤▒├ All welcome, all the time - come say Hi!
Posted 3 years ago
lol now if they could come up with those little vacuums that could scale walls/obstacles, that would be neat!
I'll be working tomorrow and just overall busy, but just wanted to wish everyone a merry Christmas!!
I'll be working tomorrow and just overall busy, but just wanted to wish everyone a merry Christmas!!
Posted in honeyglazed ★
Posted 3 years ago
Those pictures are so pretty!!
Belated happy birthday Masa!! Did you do anything special to celebrate?
Belated happy birthday Masa!! Did you do anything special to celebrate?
Posted in Have you ever seen furries...
Posted 3 years ago
@Another Movie Addict: I wish we had more holidays or occasions to dress up like that. But I'm glad you have a group you can do it with more often. :)
Posted in Have you ever seen furries...
Posted 3 years ago
@Another Movie Addict: Oh that's right, and good to know! Guess if there are any people who wear their suits outside of cons around here, I just keep missing them lol. Saw some really neat suits at my last con, including one with six legs, which was badass! Should have asked to take a picture.
Posted in Have you ever seen furries...
Posted 3 years ago
I can't say I've ever seen furries outside of cons, but to be fair, if you live in Florida, I can't blame them lol. The heat and humidity here is no joke!
The local NFL team has a mascot that wears a suit and I always wonder how he manages to survive in the thing since he's dressed in it pre-game to pump up the fans, and I'm sure he wears it well after the game. We have an outdoor stadium, not a dome, so there's no climate control for us!
The local NFL team has a mascot that wears a suit and I always wonder how he manages to survive in the thing since he's dressed in it pre-game to pump up the fans, and I'm sure he wears it well after the game. We have an outdoor stadium, not a dome, so there's no climate control for us!
Posted in What is Valuable to You?
Posted 3 years ago
@Ark: I might see if I can find videos to see how others use resin to make jewelry so I can get ideas. But thank you for your kind words. <3 We're thankful we had time to prepare for her leaving us versus finding her gone and that she went away alone. So it was hard, but we were all there for each other in her final moments.
Posted in [S/T:] Hedera Fey, orb items etc. [B/W] Deity of Faith, etc.
Posted 3 years ago
@Yae meiji: sorry for the late response, but I sent the trade. :)
Posted in What is Valuable to You?
Posted 3 years ago
Perhaps you should talk to your boyfriend about his remarks. Not really fair to judge on sentimental value, whether he understands their value to you or not. Happened with an ex of mine once where I told him I liked avatar sites, and he scoffed and more or less mocked me for it. So I told him how upsetting his response was, and asked him point blank what difference was it for me to like them when he played an MMORPG online, complete with customizable character. To that, he had no response other than to feel like shit, so much that he joined one of my preferred sites at the time without me even asking him to. Just saying, perhaps your boyfriend doesn't realize he was too quick to speak his opinion, and maybe you can gently put it into perspective for him.
Anyway, I think for me, it would be my phone and my jewelry. My phone because I have so many pictures on it of my family, and even though I do eventually back them up onto an external hard drive, I like to look back on them from time to time when I want to reminisce or want a pick-me-up. My jewelry, because even though none of them have a high dollar value, the pieces I'm thinking of all come from someone I love so much. There are some pieces I've lost over the years due to my own stupidity, which I'm still salty about. But I feel like everyone who wears jewelry eventually ends up losing something of value to them? I may end up passing some pieces to my child(ren) depending on how they feel about them when they're old enough.
Anyway, I think for me, it would be my phone and my jewelry. My phone because I have so many pictures on it of my family, and even though I do eventually back them up onto an external hard drive, I like to look back on them from time to time when I want to reminisce or want a pick-me-up. My jewelry, because even though none of them have a high dollar value, the pieces I'm thinking of all come from someone I love so much. There are some pieces I've lost over the years due to my own stupidity, which I'm still salty about. But I feel like everyone who wears jewelry eventually ends up losing something of value to them? I may end up passing some pieces to my child(ren) depending on how they feel about them when they're old enough.
I have a tooth from my late hedgehog that I kept after we had it removed from her mouth. Long story short, she needed to cross the rainbow bridge because she had mouth cancer. I'd like to take that tiny tooth and turn it into some form of jewelry (probably using resin) but not sure what shape and design I want yet.
Posted in D I G I T A L - B O U T I Q U E // [B + S] // [Update 12.08]
Posted 3 years ago
@Vii: This is going down as a donation in my quest thread lol. Much appreciated!