Anarchist Beauty's posts
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
@vengeance: Then leave.
And PS, I live with these things called 'goat heads'.
Legos don't hurt me. :vanora_sun:
And PS, I live with these things called 'goat heads'.
Legos don't hurt me. :vanora_sun:
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
:') Spent like 4k+ trying to make an avi only to hate it in the end.
Commons here suck
Commons here suck
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
Triple rainbow betrayal
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
Rainbow betrayal.
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
ALL HAIL HAZER, FIXER OF THE TRADES
I just traded stuff to my mule and i could cry over not having those irritating requests get in my way!
I just traded stuff to my mule and i could cry over not having those irritating requests get in my way!
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
I do want to see what can be done with that new common top.
Many things can come from it.
Many things can come from it.
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
:vanora_neutral:
Revenge? Aside from telling them to be more original, not much I can do.
Revenge? Aside from telling them to be more original, not much I can do.
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
Tui stealing my whole style! >.>
Think you can change the colors and get away with it?
Hmmmm? :P
Think you can change the colors and get away with it?
Hmmmm? :P
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
I want BBQ chips.
I should go to the store.
I should go to the store.
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
The proper place for a cat.
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
Your cat does not approve of your Satan worshiping ways!
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
Yay!
I could use foods right now.
I'm hungry, but I don't wanna eat cos I brushed my teeth when I woke up and now the taste of toothpaste lingers.
I could use foods right now.
I'm hungry, but I don't wanna eat cos I brushed my teeth when I woke up and now the taste of toothpaste lingers.
Posted in The sanctuary
Posted 6 years ago
Someone say food?
Posted in I dont know..
Posted 6 years ago
@milkdaddy: I am so sorry for everything you're going through, hun. Dealing with depression isn't easy, suicide attempts are never fun, and I am deeply sorry you felt the need for that. But I am also glad you got help and are still around, the world wouldn't be as bright if you were gone.
Do you have any other options? Someone else you can move in with (temporarily or otherwise)?
Because honey, if he's that flippant and dismissive of an honest to god suicide attempt and being put on suicide watch you really need to get away from him. It's not healthy, he's not good for you, and staying with someone like that will do absolutely nothing for helping you get better and overcome this illness.
Him trying to tell you "you didn't wanna die" and claiming someone else is suicidal and you're not (when you've just attempted) is popping up so many little red flags. As your boyfriend he should love you and care about you, and want you to defeat this illness; not keep trying to invalidate it and your feelings.
I suggest leaving and not listening to a single word he says if he tries to claim to miss you, because he doesn't. He misses having someone to control, manipulate, and abuse. He's using your history together to keep you anchored, he's playing on your emotional vulnerabilities to keep you trapped, and he's an abusive asshole. Maybe not physically, but emotionally and mentally and that can fuck up a person so much.
So I seriously suggest finding an avenue out of that relationship and away from him, because none of this sounds at all healthy or normal. And i know it won't be easy, but look you are only 19 years old. You have so much life left to live and so many paths in front of you, this is no time to stick to just one and continue to be abused by some asshole who couldn't give two shits about you. Go out there and work on yourself, find a path that will help you better control your depression and work towards removing suicidal ideation from your life. Find a path, or six, or fifty, that lead to you being happy. And trust me, you do not need a man or a relationship to find that.
Do you have any other options? Someone else you can move in with (temporarily or otherwise)?
Because honey, if he's that flippant and dismissive of an honest to god suicide attempt and being put on suicide watch you really need to get away from him. It's not healthy, he's not good for you, and staying with someone like that will do absolutely nothing for helping you get better and overcome this illness.
Him trying to tell you "you didn't wanna die" and claiming someone else is suicidal and you're not (when you've just attempted) is popping up so many little red flags. As your boyfriend he should love you and care about you, and want you to defeat this illness; not keep trying to invalidate it and your feelings.
I suggest leaving and not listening to a single word he says if he tries to claim to miss you, because he doesn't. He misses having someone to control, manipulate, and abuse. He's using your history together to keep you anchored, he's playing on your emotional vulnerabilities to keep you trapped, and he's an abusive asshole. Maybe not physically, but emotionally and mentally and that can fuck up a person so much.
So I seriously suggest finding an avenue out of that relationship and away from him, because none of this sounds at all healthy or normal. And i know it won't be easy, but look you are only 19 years old. You have so much life left to live and so many paths in front of you, this is no time to stick to just one and continue to be abused by some asshole who couldn't give two shits about you. Go out there and work on yourself, find a path that will help you better control your depression and work towards removing suicidal ideation from your life. Find a path, or six, or fifty, that lead to you being happy. And trust me, you do not need a man or a relationship to find that.