Branwenembers's posts

I'm back...so...i forgot my log in info and switched to a bunch of new stuff so...yeah... i feel super lame about it but im back! i'm gonna try to be more active here and in the discord server. i hope you all are doing well. Missed you all! I'd like to try and reconnect with some of the older peeps i used to hang out and chat with on here as well but i don't see them around as much :(

@Taffy: not sure

Thank you all. i have been trying to get back to a lot of my communities

Does anyone else here play Vampire:The last Masquerade by Mind's Eye Society? If so whats your character name and what setting do you play in?

I play Branwen Lokke a Follower of Set in the Independent Alliance from the domain Blood on The Rappahannock.

I absolutely love the song...listen to it on repeat a LOT. used to play LoL a bit but havent in years

Mine are not in any particular order:

Steven Universe
Gravity Falls
Adventure Time
Star vs The Forces of Evil
Over the garden wall
Bee and Puppycat
OK.KO lets be heroes
Phineas and ferb
Milo Murphys law
Scooby Doo Mystery Incorporated

@Hazer: Not exactly what i was looking for(thats my fault for being vague) but thank you regardless. I was looking more for advice/ help on how to do the sprucing(or find someone who in exchange for volts come up with a plug and chug for me)

Sorry but this is gonna be kinda long.

So, Back when my user name was DeimosPoe, i had made a post about how i discovered that i was Non-binary/Demisexual/Panromantic. This is kind of a continuation of that. You see, back in middle school i felt wrong in my skin, i hated undressing in locker rooms, i hated looking in mirrors(still do tbh) and in general just hated myself and my physical appearance...but i didn't know WHY..at least not until about 5 years ago...yeah i was an adult when i learned the words finally for how i felt and why i had so much hatred for my physical appearance. Around this time as well my anxiety and depression fueled by this self loathing, my lack of steady work, lack of funds to go back to school and a bunch of other stuff...lead me to contemplating suicide...i didn't go through with it but i had reached a very low point in my life. I had decided to try and seek spiritual help and ended up become friends with a local pagan group and very quickly discovered what is now a good portion of my chosen family. After a bunch of rash life choices leading me to another very low point in my life(8 months in a toxic, emotionally abusive and neglectful environment) i almost ended my life again. I moved back into my parents house and have since(for the most part) steady employment and am doing relatively okay...but not completely.... my mental health while not worsening at a rapid rate...is also not progressing as much as i would like. i have also recently realized that i might be transgender. through the help of my chosen family and close friends i have been exploring and discovering more about myself and that in itself has been helpful but i am a long way for being where i want to be. The former high priestess and priest as well as the current high priestess are helping me with getting mental health help, EBT help, and also helping me work on getting stuff needed to operate a Moped so that i can be even more mobile and independent. Whereas, the current high priest, and his paramours have offered me safe haven at their house whenever i need it.....I am still in a rough place but things are slowly getting better. what has helped me are the two things:

It's okay to NOT be okay
Love often, love deeply, love responsibly

I have one and use it fairly regularly, especially recently as my anxiety and depression have made me really desperately in need of physical touch/comfort

I don't want to be around anymore....I dont want to hurt myself...but i just get tired of doing the same routine everyday and when i DO break that routine i get made to feel like scum for doing so....so i want to disappear..become a ghost..a shadow...the bump in the night

Saw a socio-political satirical take on Dante's Inferno using stick puppets...it was funny...weird but funny. the political satire was a little dated but still made me laugh pretty well

Happier by Marshmello(came out shortly after i lost my grandpa and it features a dog dying in the video(lost my dog a few years ago))
My Immortal by Evanescence(...come on...its Amy Lee...her voice and the pain it is conveying is just too much)
Come Along with Me, its the ending theme song to Adventure Time and it just hit me at a really rough time

I love the Borderlands series. One of the few game series i really clicked with the story,the characters, the setting, the art style and the sense of humor

Pokemon Go and Marvel S.T.R.I.K.E force