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Posted in New Addition
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
So tiny and adorable!!! :^D
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Posted in Whacky pills
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
another update
just as i start to think stuffs getting back to normal i get an ear infection and have a bad bug in my stomach.
Oh lord please give me a break i feel like my bodys going trough all the layers of hell
just as i start to think stuffs getting back to normal i get an ear infection and have a bad bug in my stomach.
Oh lord please give me a break i feel like my bodys going trough all the layers of hell
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Posted in Hello! I was nekkid
Posted 3 years ago
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Hello welcome ^^
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Posted in Hope for humanity?
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
I understand, its hard to find hope in times like these. If your talking about american politics i curently cant give my thoughts on that (partly bc idk exactly what)
I rarly watch the news bc at this point its always the same bad stuff.
If your talking purely about losing/lost hope of humanity bc alot are bad... consider that the news youl hear is bad for a reasen. People are atracted to insane things and we people are known to blow any small thing out of proportion just to make it more intresting. A great aexemple was a few years ago "the dress" where people started to divide eachother simply bc one group saw one ver of it and the other another ver of it.
In terms of "apocalypse" i truly 100% we are either in one or will gradually be in one without noticing.
I sadly dont think somebody else will be able to help you here.
what i do that keeps me going is distraction. Its not a solution at all and in no way do i recomend it. But it helps me, and i rather be distracted and think everything is fine then be dreadful 24/7.
The distractions can be alot of things aand sometimes might not even help.
My number 1 is making characters and stories. Ive always done that and it lead to other hobbies like drawing and crafting.
Ill consume any kind of media nommater if its bad or good as long as it keeps me entertained
i cant think of anything else rn.
If you think it seriously impacts you then consulting somebody trained would be ideal.
I rarly watch the news bc at this point its always the same bad stuff.
If your talking purely about losing/lost hope of humanity bc alot are bad... consider that the news youl hear is bad for a reasen. People are atracted to insane things and we people are known to blow any small thing out of proportion just to make it more intresting. A great aexemple was a few years ago "the dress" where people started to divide eachother simply bc one group saw one ver of it and the other another ver of it.
In terms of "apocalypse" i truly 100% we are either in one or will gradually be in one without noticing.
I sadly dont think somebody else will be able to help you here.
what i do that keeps me going is distraction. Its not a solution at all and in no way do i recomend it. But it helps me, and i rather be distracted and think everything is fine then be dreadful 24/7.
The distractions can be alot of things aand sometimes might not even help.
My number 1 is making characters and stories. Ive always done that and it lead to other hobbies like drawing and crafting.
Ill consume any kind of media nommater if its bad or good as long as it keeps me entertained
i cant think of anything else rn.
If you think it seriously impacts you then consulting somebody trained would be ideal.
If i make no sense at all im sorry i took some pills the other day and its still fucking me up.
Note: the pills where meant to help with sleep and anxiety
it wasent drugs
it makes it sound like i was taking drugs i swear i wasent
Note: the pills where meant to help with sleep and anxiety
it wasent drugs
it makes it sound like i was taking drugs i swear i wasent
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Posted in Whacky pills
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
Update
i can now think a lil better
im not taking another pill until i hear back from my psychiatrist.
I feel more grounded now but talking is still exhousting
I hope ill be better tomorow
truly a scary experience 0/10 wouldnt recomend
i can now think a lil better
im not taking another pill until i hear back from my psychiatrist.
I feel more grounded now but talking is still exhousting
I hope ill be better tomorow
truly a scary experience 0/10 wouldnt recomend
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Posted in Whacky pills
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
Thank people for input,
day 2 isnt better, im only ok if im in bed with my eyes closed and stay perfectly still.
My vission is like tv static with just a dot in the midle thats a bit sharper.
I tried to tell my gran that i might be getting a too high dose but she cuts me off and says the psychiatrist wouldnt prescribe me something wrong.
Its extreamly hard to talk irl. it takes so much energie and everytime i try i feel likei put the settings wrong. I either shout or whisper, stutter and repeat alot.
Ive got alot of trouble thinking and im doing my best but i feel like im close to a panic atack.
Im gonna continue to take them and if its not better on monday im gonna message my psychiatrist.
im sorry if i worry anybody, im trying my best
thank you
goodluck yes
day 2 isnt better, im only ok if im in bed with my eyes closed and stay perfectly still.
My vission is like tv static with just a dot in the midle thats a bit sharper.
I tried to tell my gran that i might be getting a too high dose but she cuts me off and says the psychiatrist wouldnt prescribe me something wrong.
Its extreamly hard to talk irl. it takes so much energie and everytime i try i feel likei put the settings wrong. I either shout or whisper, stutter and repeat alot.
Ive got alot of trouble thinking and im doing my best but i feel like im close to a panic atack.
Im gonna continue to take them and if its not better on monday im gonna message my psychiatrist.
im sorry if i worry anybody, im trying my best
thank you
goodluck yes
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Posted in Whacky pills
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
I first of want to excuse myself, im not compleatly myself atm and will explain further why in a sec.
So tuesday i went to a psyciatrist and he prescriped me a new medication thats hould help with anxiety and sleep.
I have it to take it at 23:00 eachday.
Yesterday was the first time i took it, at the hour he told me. He also told me that i need to sent him an email in 14 days to say what i think ect.
about 30 mins after i took it i felt like that pill punched me in the face "oh you will sleep u lil shit" and i had to drop everything and go to bed.
It was such an insane overwhelming feeling of tiredness and surrealism.
Today i woke up with that same feeling but at about 13:00 i thought i should get out of bed bc its getting late and i dont wanna spent a whole day in bed.
So i do that i get out and oh god. I feel like theres a hamster in my head controlling my body, like im on auto pilot. My body feels like jelly. I cannot concentrate on anything and everything feels fake. I feel so weak as if i where to punch something it would have no effect. This sensation is insane to me and all i wanna do is cry but the only thing i can do is laugh.
At around 15:00 i couldnt anymore and went back to bed. multiple times i woke up but fell straight asleep again. That went on untill 19:00 when i had to eat.
The feelings still there loud and clear but a little less so. SO i feel like the pills work is going down? idk.
I ate and "played" with my dog. I was just sitting on the couch while gigling like crazy and my dog bumping into me everyfew minutes while i was holding onto her toy.
I hate this, its feels wrong. I cant do anything.
My gran tells me its normal but i never had this with any of the other pills i had to take.
Idk what im trying to achieve with this?
Is it normal? am i dying? share ur experience idk?
If i mistake anythng its because you know lol
So tuesday i went to a psyciatrist and he prescriped me a new medication thats hould help with anxiety and sleep.
I have it to take it at 23:00 eachday.
Yesterday was the first time i took it, at the hour he told me. He also told me that i need to sent him an email in 14 days to say what i think ect.
about 30 mins after i took it i felt like that pill punched me in the face "oh you will sleep u lil shit" and i had to drop everything and go to bed.
It was such an insane overwhelming feeling of tiredness and surrealism.
Today i woke up with that same feeling but at about 13:00 i thought i should get out of bed bc its getting late and i dont wanna spent a whole day in bed.
So i do that i get out and oh god. I feel like theres a hamster in my head controlling my body, like im on auto pilot. My body feels like jelly. I cannot concentrate on anything and everything feels fake. I feel so weak as if i where to punch something it would have no effect. This sensation is insane to me and all i wanna do is cry but the only thing i can do is laugh.
At around 15:00 i couldnt anymore and went back to bed. multiple times i woke up but fell straight asleep again. That went on untill 19:00 when i had to eat.
The feelings still there loud and clear but a little less so. SO i feel like the pills work is going down? idk.
I ate and "played" with my dog. I was just sitting on the couch while gigling like crazy and my dog bumping into me everyfew minutes while i was holding onto her toy.
I hate this, its feels wrong. I cant do anything.
My gran tells me its normal but i never had this with any of the other pills i had to take.
Idk what im trying to achieve with this?
Is it normal? am i dying? share ur experience idk?
If i mistake anythng its because you know lol
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Posted in Candy corn Caticorn
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
intresting concept lol. I wanna know how that meeting went.
"Its almost halloween, we need plushi ideas"
"okay how about a black cat?"
"bit to cliche dont you think?"
"... we"ll give it a horn... candy corn colord...
"your a genius"
"Its almost halloween, we need plushi ideas"
"okay how about a black cat?"
"bit to cliche dont you think?"
"... we"ll give it a horn... candy corn colord...
"your a genius"
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Posted in Goblins Buying Corner!
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
Bump! :^D
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Posted in [B] Lethal Dose, etc. [S] Event/Common orb items
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
@ChiffonOrange: Hello! Could i buy Daisy and all your Peach Picnic Basket's? (2300 volts?)
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Posted in Phasmophobia
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
ive played it a few times but y friend really loves it
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Posted in I ran away from life and never came back.
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
I definitly relate.
I have 2 good friends, one ive known for 6 years now. We talk about everyday even if its about nothing if that makes sense. Some days all we say to eachother is goodmorning and night but it gives me some kind of comfort to know ill hear from her everyday.
My other friend however is difrent, i love them dearly and havent known them as long as my firth friend (its been a ged few years now tho). But they truly understand me.
Its been a few weeks now that i simply havent answerd them and they understand that i curently just dont have the energy to talk to them.
Dispite that they regularly send me... not rly asking me how stuffs going more so like an actual conversation without me actually being there lol. I cant exactly explain it but i apreciate it alot.
They are also verbally very uh positive? (idk the right word) like they keep tellling me "your doing great", "i love you" ect but in the most platonic way posible.
Ive had a friend who compleatly cut ties and then came back apologizing. I wasent mad at all, however when i saw they cut ties (like they blocked me on all social media) i was very upset bc i thought i did something horibly wrong. I had their phone number but clearly they didnt want any contact so i thought to respect their wishes to just not sent them. Now its... a lil wierd between us. I accepted their apology but told them it upset me. and since then we havent messaged. We do now following eachother on sm again tho...
Now for me i have a very hard time to stay in contact with people for a long time. Its a wonder that ive been able to send my first friend for 6 years everyday and ive got no idea how im doing it lol. But at this time it feels natural.
Ive always strugled with mental health, its sadly a family thing where my great grandmother, grand mother and mom all strugle with it for their whole lives so it dosnt seem like ill b any difr...
Due to that keeping contact with anybody takes so much energy wich i simply dont have.
It dosnt help that on better days i try to push myself to do better to then double down on being worse lol.
All i can do is wish you luck
I have 2 good friends, one ive known for 6 years now. We talk about everyday even if its about nothing if that makes sense. Some days all we say to eachother is goodmorning and night but it gives me some kind of comfort to know ill hear from her everyday.
My other friend however is difrent, i love them dearly and havent known them as long as my firth friend (its been a ged few years now tho). But they truly understand me.
Its been a few weeks now that i simply havent answerd them and they understand that i curently just dont have the energy to talk to them.
Dispite that they regularly send me... not rly asking me how stuffs going more so like an actual conversation without me actually being there lol. I cant exactly explain it but i apreciate it alot.
They are also verbally very uh positive? (idk the right word) like they keep tellling me "your doing great", "i love you" ect but in the most platonic way posible.
Ive had a friend who compleatly cut ties and then came back apologizing. I wasent mad at all, however when i saw they cut ties (like they blocked me on all social media) i was very upset bc i thought i did something horibly wrong. I had their phone number but clearly they didnt want any contact so i thought to respect their wishes to just not sent them. Now its... a lil wierd between us. I accepted their apology but told them it upset me. and since then we havent messaged. We do now following eachother on sm again tho...
Now for me i have a very hard time to stay in contact with people for a long time. Its a wonder that ive been able to send my first friend for 6 years everyday and ive got no idea how im doing it lol. But at this time it feels natural.
Ive always strugled with mental health, its sadly a family thing where my great grandmother, grand mother and mom all strugle with it for their whole lives so it dosnt seem like ill b any difr...
Due to that keeping contact with anybody takes so much energy wich i simply dont have.
It dosnt help that on better days i try to push myself to do better to then double down on being worse lol.
All i can do is wish you luck
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Posted in NPC art references and stuff?
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
Ive asked this before, mainly about like past npc's looks and i got told it was never really saved online. So somebody might have it but there isnt a collection somewhere sadly
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Posted in Newbie, here to say Hello!
Posted 3 years ago
(˵◕ ᴥ ◕˵)ﾉ Hello there
Welcome! Hope youl have fun here ^^
I also love dnd! I play about every sunday (the past sundays been rough bc the dm wasent there or something came up that had the whole session canceled) however one good thing is that its online lol
I play a pink tiefling sorcerer named Wendell whos out to find/rescue his sister who was kidnapped by a vampire lord.
The party consits of 3 tieflings and one drow
So bc i feel talkative ill talk abit about my party.
Theres Void a tiefling warlock, the local edge lord but we all love him and he secretly loves us back.
He once played potion roulette and drank a potion that made a deity apear in his head who could fuffill any of his wishes (just once tho). But then he drank another and shrunk so he kinda put the potion seller under a spell to give him an antidote and is now on the run for the potionseller.
Later on he got eaten by a slime and like actually died and everybody was rly upset but the dm allowed him to do the wish so hes still alive and kicking. + the slime is now his pet.
Then theres Lucile the drow paladine, shes the mom... but chaotic. Her thing is to collect pebbles. The player couldnt come for awhile but when she came back the dm had written that she found a ring of "rock eating" + she was riding a cool elk being all majestic n stuff.
Then theres Percy the tiefling rouge, suprisingly not the edgelord. Its the players very first time and they have a lil trouble making a backstory but they are doing great rp wise. Percy is the oldest but definitly not the wisest. Tries to bang anybody thats "hot" and likes to hunt and make food at like 3 in the morning.
Then lastly theres Wendell the tiefling sorcerer, hes actually a subrace called a "fruitling". They are inspired by fruit (Wendell a strawberry, thus all n all very pink and short and his sister is a clementine and is more rounder) and have some stats switched. Wendell has been dubbed the "twink" of the group and pure chaotic neutral.
Once a lady confessed to him and he just said "no thanks but i got like 7 brothers i could set u up with". Once he licked a stick coverd with slime and took damage. And once he turned into a lady (bc of potion roulete) wich was very ironic and the dm felt so bad bc im trans lol (luckly it only took a few hours).
He also has a... "son"... wich is basicly a living and walking glowshroom brought to life by pixie dust. He carries his son in one of those babby carriers on your chest.
Some other characters ive played in oneshots:
Arthrox the minotaur barbarian. Hes basicly a soft himbo + hes a highland cow!
And Alcyone the tiefling tinkerer (i like tieflings...). Again a chaotic neutral character but while Wendell is more family/friend oriented Alcyone likes to create and is passionate ab it. He has a pistal called gustav... and i gave him a bit of a new york accent... and ppl started calling him al capone bc they couldnt pronounce his name lol.
Heres a pic of Wendell:
And here of Alcyone:
And about homestuck:
I was never really.... into it the propper way lol.
I used to watch those animatics on it and rly liked it but bc my english wasent... great... i dint knew it was like a webcomic lol. I thought a bunch of ppl just like somebodys oc or something.
And like due to the animatics and other art i kinda figured out roughly the story. And i liked the trols design so i used to draw some and even atempted to make some myself. At this point knowing how long it is idk if i could actually sit down and read it. I atempted a few times in the past but i have a small pea brain and it confused me at some points lol. I did watch a good few video essays on it to understand the culture around it and i rly wished i couldv been a part of the craze back then... I know homestuck fans have a bad rep but the people that liked it (and still like it) seem to be bonded wich i think is great
I also love dnd! I play about every sunday (the past sundays been rough bc the dm wasent there or something came up that had the whole session canceled) however one good thing is that its online lol
I play a pink tiefling sorcerer named Wendell whos out to find/rescue his sister who was kidnapped by a vampire lord.
The party consits of 3 tieflings and one drow
So bc i feel talkative ill talk abit about my party.
Theres Void a tiefling warlock, the local edge lord but we all love him and he secretly loves us back.
He once played potion roulette and drank a potion that made a deity apear in his head who could fuffill any of his wishes (just once tho). But then he drank another and shrunk so he kinda put the potion seller under a spell to give him an antidote and is now on the run for the potionseller.
Later on he got eaten by a slime and like actually died and everybody was rly upset but the dm allowed him to do the wish so hes still alive and kicking. + the slime is now his pet.
Then theres Lucile the drow paladine, shes the mom... but chaotic. Her thing is to collect pebbles. The player couldnt come for awhile but when she came back the dm had written that she found a ring of "rock eating" + she was riding a cool elk being all majestic n stuff.
Then theres Percy the tiefling rouge, suprisingly not the edgelord. Its the players very first time and they have a lil trouble making a backstory but they are doing great rp wise. Percy is the oldest but definitly not the wisest. Tries to bang anybody thats "hot" and likes to hunt and make food at like 3 in the morning.
Then lastly theres Wendell the tiefling sorcerer, hes actually a subrace called a "fruitling". They are inspired by fruit (Wendell a strawberry, thus all n all very pink and short and his sister is a clementine and is more rounder) and have some stats switched. Wendell has been dubbed the "twink" of the group and pure chaotic neutral.
Once a lady confessed to him and he just said "no thanks but i got like 7 brothers i could set u up with". Once he licked a stick coverd with slime and took damage. And once he turned into a lady (bc of potion roulete) wich was very ironic and the dm felt so bad bc im trans lol (luckly it only took a few hours).
He also has a... "son"... wich is basicly a living and walking glowshroom brought to life by pixie dust. He carries his son in one of those babby carriers on your chest.
Some other characters ive played in oneshots:
Arthrox the minotaur barbarian. Hes basicly a soft himbo + hes a highland cow!
And Alcyone the tiefling tinkerer (i like tieflings...). Again a chaotic neutral character but while Wendell is more family/friend oriented Alcyone likes to create and is passionate ab it. He has a pistal called gustav... and i gave him a bit of a new york accent... and ppl started calling him al capone bc they couldnt pronounce his name lol.
Heres a pic of Wendell:
And here of Alcyone:
And about homestuck:
I was never really.... into it the propper way lol.
I used to watch those animatics on it and rly liked it but bc my english wasent... great... i dint knew it was like a webcomic lol. I thought a bunch of ppl just like somebodys oc or something.
And like due to the animatics and other art i kinda figured out roughly the story. And i liked the trols design so i used to draw some and even atempted to make some myself. At this point knowing how long it is idk if i could actually sit down and read it. I atempted a few times in the past but i have a small pea brain and it confused me at some points lol. I did watch a good few video essays on it to understand the culture around it and i rly wished i couldv been a part of the craze back then... I know homestuck fans have a bad rep but the people that liked it (and still like it) seem to be bonded wich i think is great
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