Mellonin's posts

@So What: Welcome to Voltra! There seem to be a lot of refugees from Gaia lately, haha. It isn't really a surprise - Gaia is so big that your comments/posts get lost in the mix more often than not, and posting isn't even a focus anymore - you can just visit and play the mini games, and get all the gold you could ever want. So much for the "community" part of an avatar community site ...

@insomniapatient: Same. It was nice back in the day, but they're just stretching themselves too thin trying to incorporate anything and everything they can think of, instead of focusing and actually doing a good job of developing their features. Still, Voltra is doing a damn good job of stepping up and filling the void left by Gaia <3

@insomniapatient: Not to mention that earning gold was waaaaay too easy on Gaia. By the time you finished visitng each of the pages - and getting the free items/gold - you could just switch over to the games, and never actually post in the forums. One or two games are always nice on a community site, but they added so many that the 'community' feature was almost pushed to the background!

@insomniapatient: I'm glad you like it so much! It's nice actually being able to post, and not be drowned by the 100 other posts like in Gaia O_o

Welcome to Voltra! I used to be on Gaia back in the day, but it just wasn't the same after my friend - username of shadowhakka on Gaia - passed away. That was OUR site, and using it without him just felt ... wrong.

But welcome to Voltra, anwhoo :) I'm sure you'll love it here.

Welcome to Voltra! I'm sure you'll love it here :) I'm not super active - the last time I logged in was about a month ago! - but I always end up gravitating back to Voltra. It's one of the best avatar/community sites left, since Gaia has become pretty much spam-fest and a micro transaction land of too many voices for your thoughts to possibly be heard!

@Saeyra: There's more to this than just good times vs bad times. I actually have a very good life - steady job, boyfriend, steady housing, mother who loves me, etc. It's more complicated than that.

But I am definitely looking forward to the trip. I've never been good at settling down and staying in one place, and I've been here for close to 3 years now, just traveling maybe half an hour away from my house. And I'm used to traveling a whole lot more than that. Not to mention living in the country has never been for me - and you don't get much more country than small towns in Maine!

Currently downloading ESO - damn, it's a large download!

Currently playing DDO - Dungeons and Dragons Online - in my spare time, though. That is one game that I always end up coming back to, haha.

I just finished Dishonored on my PS3 - and I got the good ending!

Playing Final Fantadsy X and X-2 on my PS3 - another game series I continually come back to! I love the story of FFX, and FFX2 has so many extra features and side quests, not to mention I love the world of Spira.

@Deaa: How are you enjoying the HP series so far? I originally read it while it was still being written, so going to the book releases was a real treat :)

I write Harry Potter fanfiction now -- I find that I almost enjoy some of the fanfics more than the books at this point! Especially the darker themed ones :D Right now, I'm focusing on a couple of crossover fics - HP as BCC Sherlock's son, which has gotten some pretty good reviews.

And, of course, In Renascentia Azkaban, which I've posted the first part of here on Voltra. That one is a crossover between HP and The Old Kingdom / Abhorsen Series by Garth Nix. The link is in my signature, if you want to check it out :)

I should probably give the books another read-through, though. It's been a while since I sat down and read them in full.

So, I think I might have a solution ... at least for a bt.

My father has invited me to travel the county with him in a brand new RV. He arrives in a month, and we will be driving back to California if his current RV hasn't sold, If it has sold, we will be buying a larger RV here in Maine - where I live. Either way, I will be out of my current situation by the beginning of August, and on my way to a completely different life.

One with travel, away from a job I hate. Away from low income housing, an over medicated mother, etc.

I've begun selling / giving away a lot of my things - the little knick-knacks or clothes I don't normally wear, and packing up a lot of my other stuff. I won't be able to bring a lot on the RV - limited space - so I need to pick and choose carefully.

Still, at least for now, I actually have some hope. Which is something I haven't had in a long time.

Assassin

So, I don't really have anywhere to talk about this.

I am suffering from some pretty serious depression and anxiety right now. I live with a mother who suffers from the same, and is on a ton of meds because of it. I know the symptoms, both in myself and in others. I know it's not good.

I don't really eat. I barely sleep. I can't seem to get through a full day at work without breaking down crying. I'm drinking too much. Nothing interests me, nothing helps. My best coping mechanisms are now useless, and I just can't help but wonder if it's even worth fighting anymore.

I'm exhausted, both mentally and physically, and more and more I find myself wondering if it wouldn't be easier to just end it all.

Sure, some people would be sad for a while, but then they would get over it, move on with their lives. And I would finally NOT be in pain, NOT be exhausted, NOT have to fight just to make it through another day.

Welcome to the site! With the avatar communities available these days, I think Voltra really does stand head and shoulders above the rest. The only of those sites you mentioned that I recognized was Gaia, which has gone seriously downhill imho.

@Xenojiiva: Welcome to Voltra! I'm sure you'll love it here :)