Shadami's posts

Posted in What if.... Posted 4 years ago

I think you would hear alot of evil world domination plotting which would be terrifying.

What if pluto was still a planet ?

Posted in DnD Search? Posted 4 years ago

Being a girl definitely doesn't have to do with playing DND or not. That's crazy. It's a collaborative storytelling game and that's for anyone! ^^

If I had the time to schedule things I'd run a voltie campaign. But most I have is setting up posts and such >.<

Posted in crocheting and feeling like crap Posted 4 years ago

Are you playing DND with strangers or friends? It's always much easier to play with friends. I've been trying to dnd as well to help with my depression. Even just making the world and creating characters for it has been helping. Writing and not caring if people will see it or not.

I've been playing a new tabletop game with my daughters . It's called "you wake up in a strange place" it's made by drawfee and is a 2 hour ish one off roleplay game. No one, not even them dm comes prepared and you make it all up on the spot made for four players. It's pretty fun

Posted in One crazy year eh? I've had a few. Posted 4 years ago

2020 has been a year of insane controversy's and mother nature striking. I've been sitting in my quiet bubble of an apartment slowly getting more and more depressed And ready to die.
Oh yeah. That's the reason I put this in serious chat.
2020 happened just after I had a baby that almost killed me to give birth to her. I sunk into a post partum depression be or who knows a real one perhaps because I found out this had to be my last child.
I found out I couldn't donate blood or give eggs to those who can't make their own. I'm jobless. My friends outside the computer never talk to me. My husband was struggling with his own things and I didn't want to burden him further.
I've got a daughter with scd and adhd who was destroying everything. Quite literally. Cutting clothes apart. Breaking glass framed paintings. Cutting apart magazines . Stealing things from my medical supplies and my art supplies. Generally being to much for me to handle. Especially while done with life .
Started drinking heavily. Disassociating. Never being a bad mom because they're the reasons I'm still alive even if they were driving me insane. Just want to make that clear. All the hauntings of my past of being bullied started creeping back into my memory. Generally got to a really dark place..
There is so much I can say here but I'm trying to keep it relatively short. 2020 hits. I'm not watching media. I can't handle it. Im already hyperventilating trying to not shut down and just lose all hope.
Then I lose a friend for saying the wrong word that I didn't even know COULD be a wrong word. Normal conversation turns into some kind of attack to me because I'm not putting out the fire of the house on the news. I looked around And said yeah... But there are 50 houses on fire and I was talking about all of them. I didn't realize one was getting attention in the news. Sorry..... And I want to put them all out... It's not that I'm ignoring that one because other houses look nice and it would be a shame if they caught on fire. I didn't realize wanting to try to tackle all of the fires was a bad thing.

I'm socially awkward. This was just kind of the straw that broke me. Sick of people. Sick of being attacked for existing. Sick of being the one kicked and beaten thrown in a pit and spit on. And all the while trying to smile and be the most happy helpful person in the world brightening everyone's day.

I'm sorry to say I have been battling this depression now for many years and I've been in denial that I'm suicidal. I've been on the brink of losing hope and I didn't get the chance to just say hey I'm going on hiatus and taking a break. I just disappeared. For that I'm sorry to all my voltra friends.

With my parents help I've escaped the horrible situation I was living in with a slum Lord of a landlord. I didn't feel safe walking out of the apartment. I didn't know who would attack me next for existing. Things aren't better yet. But they are heading in the right direction. I at least feel safe going outside again.

I've got a really long road to recovery still but I wanted to let you all know that he I'm alive. Still here. Just... I find it hard to talk anymore. I've broken and lost my smile. I don't talk much to anyone anymore. Online or off. Loves to all still of course.<3

Posted in CLOSED Posted 4 years ago

They really did leave the ghosts out didn't they. Shame.

Also hi. I'm alive xD sorry for my absence.

Posted in Promote It! ~ Activity Inspiration Posted 5 years ago

I still need to hunt down what can clubs are out there xD and finish a thread I was working on. I got very sidetracked by life.

Posted in The Surge: Vibrance Day Ending + Event Winners, Credits! Posted 5 years ago

*applauds wildly for everyone*

Posted in Happy Vibrance: Come get free art. OPEN SLOTS :) Posted 5 years ago

Same feelings poof constantly

Posted in VIBRANCE DAY FREEBIES OF WOE Posted 5 years ago

Pretty fantastic art

Posted in Vibrance day tarot readings Posted 5 years ago

@SuperZombiePotatoe: and... I'm still not ready. She's so neeeeedy. And my lap is asleep

Posted in Unicorn's Vibrant Hangout Posted 5 years ago

Sorry I didn't really hang around this event unicorn. :/ This time of life is stressful for me. To much to do in little apartment with 5 people trying not to go insane

Posted in Vibrance Day at Hogwarts Posted 5 years ago

I'm sorry I didn't hang around this event Ana. T.t I'm off my game lately. Probably most people are. Three kids for me is to much with everything going on.

Posted in ♥ ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿ ♥ - PAGE GOAL: 420 we did it ny'all Posted 5 years ago

I want to draw but taking care of baby atm. And hubby is hogging the beeeeed xD

Posted in ♥ ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿ ♥ - PAGE GOAL: 420 we did it ny'all Posted 5 years ago

One person records themselves singing one part of a duet. And then publishes it into the game. Another person can take that recording and sing the other part of the duet and upload it as a full duet