Starlightmoonie's posts

@totalanimefan: that's sweet. I promise my looks are deceiving. Avatar designing and forum lurking are where my skillset stops :P

@ruby: thank you! I'm super excited to get to know this community more.

I love both of your avatars so much <3

Heyo~

I've always been interested in rp-ing but am high key very shy about it!
I was wondering if anyone was interested in taking a newbie under their wing? ~.O

Thanks guys. I’m excited to explore - free to chat with me anytime~ I’m a good listener

A solid plan. Shoulda done that but I have 0 chill XD

I just watched it myself! I like how it's setting up but we will see~ I am cautiously optimistic

I'm going through a huge emotional transition in my life where I have to step away from an abusive family unit. My mother is a narcissistic abuser, my dad an enabler, and the rest of my siblings pretty much just gaslight me whenever I try to talk about our ~tragic backstory~ or ask questions or try to get clarity on events. It's a struggle.

My majority issue is with my mother and really accepting that she is and always will be unempathetic towards me. It has been a heartbreaking experience fully accepting that I am never going to be good enough for her - as I am. Obviously I didn't know this growing up so I cultivated my entire interests, hobbies, and personality towards trying to "earn her love"

This acceptance has been a long time coming. I'm 28 and although my world isn't shattered- my self perception most definitely is. I'm just really struggling piecing back together any identity I ever had. I feel as though I'm really backsliding with my mental health as I have made great strides thus far but this revelation really broke me down this time. I'm really realizing how little self-esteem I have, how much I put myself down, how much I bully myself, etc.

It just sucks and it's a hard pill to swallow to see the road ahead of me. I'm lucky to have the support system I have with my fiancé and his family - but somedays it just doesn't feel like it's enough. There's always that rhetorical "why can't my mom just love me?" in the back of my mind and it kills.

I just needed a place to let all these feelings out.

hello! just joined myself! hope you're having a lovely day :3

Hello! I just stumbled upon here going down the nostalgia rabbit hole of neopets and gaia and craved that mineral - er - something similar. Hit me up if you're down to make a new friend :)