Voltie
— They/them
Posted 5 years ago ( 2020/05/21 07:46:17 )
Confession: I am going down in my medicine dose to conserve the medicine I have left until the psych I'm seeing in June gives me a new prescription. She says she can't give me the meds I'm currently on, so I'll have to switch. I'm worried about lethargy and weight gain, and I'm worried I'll go psychotic like I've done the other times I've switched.
I'm also worried I'll go psychotic from the decreased dose, but I don't see any other option at this point.
Part of me just wants to get off meds all together, but my last attempt gave me a month in the psych ward, so I know that's not a viable option.
I'm just so frustrated with the whole situation. I'm sick of side effects and feeling bad if I miss a dose, I'm sick of spending tons of money on stupid pills, and I'm sick of not being able to hold my shit together if I don't get meds.
I've always wanted to lift a large quadraped over my head